"Find a way by yourself?" Mrs. An said with a mocking look on her face, "If you are capable, don't ask me to raise you, don't eat my food, use me, and wear my clothes."
"No, I'm not an adult yet and I don't have the ability to support myself." An Ran raised her head and looked at her coldly, "You have the responsibility and obligation to raise me up."
She wouldn't be so stupid as to choose hard mode for the sake of her illusory backbone.
She is still far from the point where she has to catch up on her studies and go out to make money to support herself. It is just one more day that she can be supported by her adoptive parents.
There will be plenty of time in the future for her to go out and fight.
"Can't you go to heaven?" The sarcasm on Mrs. An's delicately made-up face became even stronger. She had thin eyebrows drawn today. When she looked at people with slightly raised eyebrows, she looked colder and meaner than her calm face. After a while, "Don't you want to be fair? The basis of fairness is that you cannot be a parasite. Parasites have no rights."
Why am I becoming a parasite? Isn’t it because of you? An Ran suppressed the discomfort in her heart and said, "I'm not asking you for absolute fairness. I just need you to put yourself in my shoes and think about it. I really can't do some things that are beyond my ability. Please be more tolerant to me." .”
"I consider myself very tolerant of you, An Ran." Mrs. An said with great disdain, "Don't be so shameless. I didn't ask you to attend the youth class at the age of 15. I usually let you sleep eight hours a day. I’m very tolerant of you.”
As she spoke, her voice became sharper, "Do you know what the conditions for fairness are? You must have the same strength as me, or even a higher strength than me, otherwise why should you Talk to me about fairness?”
I know this very well!
After all, we have always been a vulnerable group when facing you.
"I know." An Ran looked at Mrs. An calmly, with a kind of determination and calmness in her eyes, "I am not yet a minor, so of course I can't talk about fairness with you, not to mention that the world is inherently unfair, no matter in business In society or in daily life, there is no underlying operating law that says fairness. The whole world is not fair. Am I crazy? Let me talk to you about fairness."
"I think you don't know how high the sky is." Mrs. An raised her chin slightly and looked at An Ran, "My wings haven't hardened yet, and I want to fly."
No matter what, I have to wait until my wings harden before I fly out.
If you fly now, aren't you courting death?
Sorry, Mrs. An, I cherish my life very much.
"No." An Ran shook her head obediently, choosing to say something that would make Mrs. An less angry, "But home is not a place for fairness, home is a place for love."
"Useless people don't deserve love."
There was a confrontation between mother and daughter. An Ran bowed her head first and said, "You're right."
But that's just your perception.
In this world, it is never the useless people who do not deserve love, but the loveless people who do not deserve love.
Although An Ran's attitude softened, Mrs. An's anger did not decrease too much. "From now on, your monthly pocket money will be halved. When you get the first place in the exam, it will be the same as before. You can't have dinner this week." .”
"I know." Faced with such punishment, An Ran accepted it calmly.
She calculated that her monthly pocket money used to be 800 yuan. If she reduced it in half, she would get 400 yuan. 100 yuan a week should be enough for her to eat at school. If it is not enough, she would have to buy some Laoganma and eat in the cafeteria. Eat with rice.
If this is the case, the nutrition may not be enough.
She had known for a long time that there would be no dinner tonight, so she ate so many snacks at the school gate in advance. It worked now. Even though the aunt was serving food in the restaurant one after another, she was not so hungry that she swallowed her saliva. She felt uncomfortable and hungry because of her hunger. Feeling wronged and aggravating one's negative emotions.
Even though I didn't do well in the exam, I still want to go out to eat delicious food.
This is the law of the world that Enron discovered after suffering for a long time in his last life. What can heal a person is sleep, food, small animals, nature, and money, and rarely because of human beings.
……
An Jing heard footsteps outside the door in the room, quickly opened the door from inside and walked out, "Why are you coming back so slowly?"
"What's wrong with you?" An Ran stopped and looked at him.
"Can't I pay attention to you if I have nothing to do?" An Jing leaned against the door, "Today's grilled sausages and rice cakes were good."
"Let's continue eating tomorrow." An Ran said, "You have plenty of pocket money anyway."
Thinking of this, An Ran couldn't help but feel envious and jealous of An Jing, a rich man.
"Why are you unhappy again?" An Jing did not miss the flash of displeasure in An Ran's eyes.
"Am I jealous of how much money you have?" An Ran glared at An Jing angrily.
An Jing was stunned for a moment and soon felt funny, "You are not poor, why are you jealous of me."
"I'm very poor and seriously short of money." An Ran opened her eyes slightly and complained to An Jing.
"Okay, whatever you want to buy, I'll buy it for you." An Jing was pleased by An Ran's jealous look and said very generously.
"I want to buy daily necessities for school and accommodation, and you'll cover them all?" An Ran knew that An Jing was not stingy, but she didn't expect that he was so talkative today.
"Okay." An nodded.
"Thank you." A smile appeared on An Ran's face.
After solving the pain point in front of her so easily, she turned around and went to her room.
An Jing felt a little unhappy when he saw her walking forward without looking back, "You must have changed too quickly with your attitude of burning bridges."
"Okay, Master, what else do you need me to do?" An Ran immediately turned around, stood obediently, and looked at An Jing pretending to be a bitch.
An Jing couldn't help but became happy again.
He smiled and asked the question he was embarrassed to ask in front of outsiders that afternoon, "Why did you suddenly go to eat at a roadside stall today?"
He felt that his sister's living habits had changed recently.
"Eat it if you want." An Ran thought for a moment, took out the notebook given by the Chinese teacher in the morning from her schoolbag, opened it and handed it to him, "Have you not finished any of these extracurricular review materials?"
"Why, do you want it?" An Jing took it and took a look and was shocked, "Why are there so many?"
"Just tell me if you have?"
"I don't know, I have to look for it." An Jing shook his head, "There should be some."
"Can you help me find it now?" An Ran's plan was to buy these learning materials written by teachers for her. She would have to spend a lot of money to buy them. If An Jing didn't make them, he could give them to her.
It not only helps him recycle waste, but also helps her save money.
It could not be better.
She remembered that her adoptive mother bought boxes of reference materials for An Jing. Considering how diligently he studied, he couldn't finish them all.
But he is his biological son after all.
It doesn't matter if he can't finish it. Anyway, when Mrs. An is socializing outside, she often asks the ladies in her circle about her children's learning. Those ladies are also happy to share these resources with each other.
Mrs. An has always supported An Jing with the attitude of "I am good when others have it, and I am good when others don't have it". It is difficult for An Jing to think of many learning materials.
"Come in." An Jing turned around and entered the room, "They are all in the bookcase. You can pick them up with me. Take whatever is useful."
"Thank you, brother." An Ran quickly followed An Jing into the room.
An Jing's room is connected to the study room. The study room and the room are both very large. There are two cabinets with a collection of books and study materials, which are as rich as a small bookstore.
But if you look carefully, you will find that most of the books on the bookshelves in An Jing's study are new, and the transparent plastic paper wrapping on the outside of many books has not been removed.
Of course, he did not buy so many books by himself, but his mother hired a special bookstore purchasing specialist to help her son buy them.
It can be seen that people who have a lot of books may not necessarily love reading.
It is undeniable that apart from being mean and indifferent to herself, the adoptive mother is still okay with her biological children.
Thinking that she was not the biological child of the An family, An Ran sighed heavily, "As long as it's something you didn't do, can I take it away?"
She returned her attention to the area where Anjing kept study materials.
"Take, take, take!" An Jing was extremely happy to give these endless review books and materials to An Ran, "Do you want these?"
He opened the cabinet door under the bookshelf and took out a brand new stack of mock test papers for the first year of high school.
An Ran looked at the thick stack of brand new mock test papers in front of him, surprised but not surprised, "Yes."
An Jingma quietly put it aside for her, then squatted down and went to the cabinet to continue rummaging, and pulled out a thick stack of extracurricular tutoring books for the first year of high school, "Do you want these?"
It seems that An Jing is the right person to ask for review materials. He really has a lot of stuff.
"Yes." An Ran refused to accept anyone who came. She felt that she couldn't finish these things by then. If there were duplicates, they could be distributed to other students in the class. Anyway, An Jing put them here at the bottom of the box, so why not give them to those who need them more? people.
"Have you finished it? There are so many." An Jing began to worry about her as he picked it up, "Why have you started to work again recently?"
An Ran's current appearance reminded him of the fierceness with which she devoted herself to studying last year in order to pass the high school entrance examination.
"I didn't do well in the monthly exam, so I have to work hard." An Ran explained, "My pocket money will be halved next time, so I will rely on the materials you gave me to help me get the money back."
No wonder she just cried about her poverty.
An Jing asked doubtfully, "Is it really that bad in the exam?"
Generally speaking, Enron doesn't have much pocket money, and her mother rarely punishes her by deducting her pocket money. But once this method is used, it means that Enron's mistakes made her mother very angry.
"Very bad." An Ran admitted generously, "I came in last in the monthly exam this time."
"Last in the class?" An Jing was shocked.
"Correct."
After An Jing was silent for a while, he placed the tutorial book in his hand neatly next to the mock paper he just took out. "The students in Class A of No. [-] Middle School are all very hardworking. If you slack off a little, you will easily be left behind."
Of course he also knew that An Ran had spent a lot of time practicing the piano some time ago. "Fortunately, now that Xiao Sai has passed, you can have more time to study."
"Yes." An Ran said, "I also plan to catch up with the backward progress in the future. If I don't catch up, as time goes by, I will be even more behind."
Enron never overestimates his talent.
She knows that she is just an ordinary person.
For ordinary people, absolute talent and absolute luck are out of reach. Diligence and hard work are the only ways to improve yourself. There is really no need to compare your own diligence and hard work with absolute talent and luck. There is no comparison. .
There's no point other than getting angrier the more you think about it.
She once stood under the halo and was called a "genius".
Outsiders see her winning easily, but only she knows what she has done behind the scenes and what efforts she has made in order to stand under the shining spotlight and to stand on the top of the mountain to meet better people.
Kobe saw Los Angeles at four in the morning countless times.
In her short life, there were countless four o'clock in the morning of her own.
"How about asking mom to sign you up for an after-school review class." An Jing looked at the two thick stacks of materials in front of him and felt that his head was too big, let alone An Ran, who would have to digest them all later. , "It is much more efficient than working on the questions yourself."
An Ran knows what An Jing means. A better extracurricular review institution will provide systematic courses and guidance to help her understand and master the knowledge points of various subjects, so that she can absorb classroom knowledge faster.
An Jing has been attending extracurricular tutoring classes since junior high school, the kind where his mother spent a lot of money to hire famous teachers for him.
This is also the reason why An Jing can still study in Class A of No. [-] Middle School even though he doesn't work very hard in studies.
She attended last year, but not this year.
Enron is not opposed to easier shortcuts to improve scores.
She looked at An Jing and smiled, "Okay, if you can convince your mother, I will thank you very much."
An Jing looked at her short hair and the band-aid in her hand with deep eyes, "You are also unlucky. If these bad things hadn't happened in the past few days, my mother wouldn't be angry. It would be easy to ask her for anything."
"That's right." An Ran tilted her head towards him slightly, "We have so many papers to do and so many books to read, so we'd better not waste time doing useless work." An Jing knelt down again and helped seriously. An Ran was looking for materials, "Did you really move to school to study hard?"
"What do you think?" An Ran asked him.
"I don't think you are." An Jing also has his own sensitivity. "I think you seem to be very unhappy at home recently. You are not as patient with me and my parents as before."
An Ran looked at him seriously and then lowered her head to look at An Jing's bookshelf, "Just now my mother asked me how I did in the exam, and I said 'I didn't do well'. Do you know how she reacted?"
"What's the reaction?"
"At least you are still a normal person. You know that I did not do well in the exam because I was busy participating in the competition some time ago."
If the fate of your previous life remains unchanged, your normality can only be maintained for a short time.
"Mom scolded you again?" An Jing reacted quickly.
"Yes." An Ran calmly repeated to An Jing a few words that Mrs. An had just scolded her downstairs, "If the same situation happened and your mother treated you like this, how would you feel?"
An Jing took a deep breath, "It's very uncomfortable."
"Right." An Ran continued to tell him in a calm tone, "I am also a human being, and I will feel uncomfortable after being criticized and criticized for a long time. Therefore, in order to protect myself, I have to choose to stay away from her temporarily."
He is about to completely stay away from her.
"You might as well go outside for a while first." An Jing's voice deepened, "Mom does have a strong desire to control sometimes and doesn't speak very nicely."
"So you also know that your mother is very controlling." An Ran looked at him in surprise.
Thinking of An Jing's protection of Antu, Mrs. An and Anya in her previous life, she thought they were all the same people and could not see her own problems at all, always thinking that it was her.
"I'm not an idiot." An Jing glanced at An Ran speechlessly, "But she is also..."
"Who is she too?" An Ran asked after hearing him stop talking in the middle of his sentence.
"It's nothing." An Jing lowered his head and explained in a deep voice, "She must be feeling upset that's why she's like this. Please be more patient."
He originally wanted to explain that his mother was acting like this because she lost her sister, became mentally unstable when she was sick, and always lost her temper with An Ran.
But thinking that An Ran still knew nothing about his life experience, he stopped in time.
"I'm sorry, I've had enough to bear and can't continue to digest her emotional black hole." An Ran said rationally, "I can understand that she has a bad temper. When facing outsiders, it would be good not to imitate her temper. I no longer have the energy to tolerate her anymore.”
——"Besides, tolerating parents is not what children should do in the first place."
It's about adults knowing that they have problems and must learn to self-reflect and educate themselves.
Obviously, a person with Mrs. An's brain circuit would not naturally use this string on her.
If you don’t love it, you won’t bother.
She deeply understood that they were unreliable, and she had to rely on herself to save herself.
Knowing the facts An Ran said, An Jing felt a little stuck in his heart, but he couldn't digest his mother's situation, so he had to change the topic, "When will you move to school?"
"Tomorrow and the day after tomorrow."
"So fast?"
"Otherwise?" An Ran glanced at him lightly, "When you find that there is someone around you who can only see your shortcomings, do you want to climb out of this pit quickly?"
One day, she will get up from the human pit and will not have any expectations from anyone, nor will she expect anyone to treat her well.
She will love herself well.
"She's just a little stricter on you, so it's not that bad." An Jing also wanted to try to explain to her mother.
"Maybe your mother is not that bad to you." An Ran took out the reference book she was using from the bookcase very coldly, "I am so busy every day now, consuming my people and things, I don't want to read more. I live every day to be worthy of one day's life, not to fulfill another person's ambition to control me."
She must stay away from dpcl and embrace a happy life.
No matter how stupid you are, you can't continue to be fooled by some truth that tastes bitter and good medicine but hurts your ears.
An Jing had never faced such a sober and rational An Ran, and was shocked and speechless by her words.
He felt that what she said was right, but it seemed wrong.
That's mom after all.
"You don't have to say that..." He defended in a low voice, "After all, it's my mother. She has a bad temper at most, but she still cares about you."
After all, An Jing's identity is different from his own, and the love he receives from Mrs. An is also different.
An Ran was too lazy to argue with him, "I have to ask you to help me move these books and test papers to my room. I can't move them myself."
She saw clearly the hesitation in An Jing's eyes, but so what?
Anyway, she has made a decision and will not change it just because of a few words.
"Okay." An Jing pulled out another stack of papers from the cabinet.
"Are there any unfinished papers hidden in your cabinet?" An Ran asked curiously.
"Absolutely." An Jing touched her nose sheepishly, "My mother bought me too many, and I couldn't finish them before. I originally thought I could use them for review this year."
"You should keep what you need first." An Ran looked at the reference books and test papers that An Jing brought out, and compared them with those written by the teachers of various subjects in the notebook in her hand, and found that the ones he gave her were different from those written by them. Pretty much the same.
An Ran said it was a small blessing to be able to save a fortune on buying materials.
"I'll give it all to you." Sensing An Ran's happiness, An Jing relaxed slightly, "It's done. If you still want it, you can come and get it from me."
"Okay." Couldn't have been better.
"Knock knock" "Knock knock" A light and rhythmic sound sounded outside the door.
"What's the matter?" An Jing asked outside the door.
"Master, it's time to have dinner." An aunt outside replied.
"I know, come on." After An Jing responded to his aunt, he invited An Ran, "Let's go have dinner together?"
"I'm sorry, Master, I haven't had dinner at home this week." An Ran rolled her eyes gently, "You can go by yourself, I will continue to look for materials."
An Jing was actually a little hungry, especially as his appetite was whetted by a few skewers of fried food in the afternoon.
But seeing An Ran like this, she felt very embarrassed, "I'll help you find all the materials first before going down."
"Better say goodbye." An Ran urged him, "Go down quickly. Don't let your mother wait. She will lose her temper again later."
"Why do you keep saying 'your mother' and 'your mother' today? Isn't my mother your mother?" An Jing thought it was awkward for An Ran to speak like this, "Are you angry with her?"
"Yeah, I'm angry with your mother and don't want to forgive her." An Ran said frankly.
This was an attitude she had never had in front of anyone before.
An Jing knew that since she was a child, her sister had been very protective of her mother, even more protective than him.
But something seems to be different recently.
He was vaguely surprised, but a different feeling grew from the bottom of his heart.
"If you don't want to forgive, don't forgive me." He sighed softly, "Remember to eat dinner outside these days, so as not to starve yourself."
"Of course." An Ran said, "I won't starve myself."
Seeing An Ran's confident look, An Jing suddenly laughed for some reason, "Did you eat those at the school gate in the afternoon because you knew you didn't do well in the exam and your mother would punish you?"
"For the most part, yes."
"What about other factors?"
"I'm afraid I'll be full of gas when I get home and feel uncomfortable, so I fill myself up in advance so that the bad gas can't come in."
An Jing was amused and laughed.
An Ran rolled her eyes at him.
An Jing immediately assured her in a relaxed tone, "Don't worry, I won't tell mom."
"Okay, you can go down." An Ran waved her hand and said, "I'll choose it myself. After dinner, you can come up and help me take the selection to the room."
"I'm going to eat." If An Ran was as sad, frustrated, and unmotivated as before every time after being scolded by her mother, An Jing would never be able to go to eat alone so easily.
He will feel guilty and unhappy.
I was torn between spending time with my sister and spending time with my mother.
But today was different. Because of his sister's calmness, he could face her and himself more relaxedly.
It was clear that what his sister said was not a nice thing to say, but it unexpectedly made him feel comfortable listening to it.
……
When An Jing returned to the room after dinner to move the review materials to An Ran's room, he found her walking out of her dressing room.
"What are you looking at?"
When he entered the door, he saw An Ran standing in the cloakroom and staring at his wardrobe in a daze.
"Get ready to leave." An Ran turned to look at him and guided him, "Put these materials on my bookshelf."
An Ran does not have an independent study room, but it does have an independent cloakroom.
The area used as a study room in the room is an area created in the bedroom. The bookcases are much smaller than Anjing's bookcases.
But there, An Ran had sorted out an empty area in advance, enough to store the review materials An Jing sent.
An Jing held a thick load of books and wanted to help her stuff them into the bookcase, but found that the operation was too difficult!
"I'll come." An Ran walked over, took down the tutorial books and reference materials in batches, and put them neatly on the bookshelf, "I'm moving to the school the day after tomorrow. I have a lot of stuff, so I have to ask Uncle Zhang to give it away."
"I'll see you off with him." An Jing quickly decided.
"No, I can just move it myself." An Ran refused.
"I'll take you to the dormitory." An Jing suddenly darkened his face slightly, "This way you won't be afraid of others bullying you if you live on campus."
"Who can bully me?" An Ran laughed, but also sincerely expressed her gratitude to An Jing for protecting her, "Thank you, An Jing, I will take good care of myself."
"How come you won't be bullied?" An Jing thought of the girls he accidentally met on campus last time and heard their conversations, "You are so good that you can easily attract jealousy, and being jealous can lead to ill will. "
Seeing An Jing's humming look, An Ran asked keenly, "Do you know something?"
An Ying nodded and told her what happened at school that day, "Don't worry, I've warned them. If they bully you again, just tell me and I won't make them look good."
"Thank you." An Ran didn't expect this to happen, "Are you talking about the women who fought with me last time?"
"should be."
"I already knew it." An Ran neatly stacked the remaining materials into his bookshelf, turned to An Jing and said, "otherwise, why do you think I fought so hard last time?"
"You should have told me earlier." An Jing felt slightly guilty when she thought about how she didn't help her handle the school violence incident more perfectly last Friday because of An Ran's bad temper. 1314(End of this chapter)