Chapter 65
"What's wrong? Are you still unwilling?" Seeing An Ran's silence, An Jing thought she disliked her house. "If you go, I'll ask Auntie to come over and clean it a few times a week."
When school started, he invited An Ran over for a lunch break. An Ran was disgusted at the time and said she didn't want to go to his house. "A stinky boy's house must be as messy as a pig's nest."
Honestly speaking, An Jing considers himself a boy who cares about hygiene and loves tidiness. Of course, he also knows that his sister loves cleanliness even more than he does.
"Will it disturb my brother?" An Ran would not refuse the benefits just because of a temporary imbalance.
An Jing is willing to help her, why shouldn't she? Otherwise, if she wants to find a place to stay in the future, it will be expensive to stay in a hotel, which is not as safe as Anjing's house.
Besides, it was normal for her grandparents to give generous gifts to their grandson, and it would be crazy for her to demand that she be treated the same as An Jing in front of them.
Has this changed your mind? An Jing thought for a moment and said, "If you can abide by my rules, I won't bother you."
An Ran felt that there was nothing unacceptable about going to someone else's property and abiding by the owner's rules. "Then tell me the rules for staying at your house."
"I'll tell you when I have time."
"Are you free later? Before eight o'clock."
"I'll go upstairs and talk to you now."
"Row."
An Jing stood up, picked up the guitar placed aside and wanted to go upstairs with An Ran.
An Ran didn't forget to tell An Tu before going upstairs, "Dad, please help me arrange for me to go to school and live on campus."
"Look for your mother." Antu basically didn't care about the children's affairs before, and it was his wife who took care of it.
"But your wife said she doesn't want to see me." An Ran said, "I have no choice but to trouble you. Dad, as you said, you can help me whenever I need it."
Xia Antu looked at An Ran's sloppy back and was silent for a moment.
An Jing quickly caught up with An Ran.
When the two of them climbed the stairs one after the other.
He looked at the light in the corridor falling on An Ran's head and couldn't help but ask, "Why did you suddenly cut your hair?"
An Ran turned to look at An Jing, "I thought you wouldn't ask this question."
"You didn't drink last night." Since he didn't drink, he couldn't have gone crazy and cut his hair suddenly. Since he didn't go crazy and cut his hair suddenly, the reasons why An Ran cut his hair so suddenly are worth pondering.
This was also the question he couldn't help but think about when he went out today.
He remembered that An Ran cherished her hair since childhood.
"I said I hate my long hair and wearing a skirt. Can you understand the way some people look at me?" An Ran turned her head and her clear eyes fell on the face of An Jing, who was catching up and walking beside her.
In the brightly lit corridor, An Jing inexplicably felt that An Ran's eyes were as deep as a well whose bottom could not be seen at a glance. It was calm on the surface, but it was unknown what was hidden under the well.
Besides, the first thing he could think of was - "Did someone be rude to you last night?"
"That's right." An Ran turned her head.
"Who is it?" An Jing's face immediately darkened, and there was anger in his voice, "I'll kill him."
"Forget it." An Ran smiled lightly, "You can't kill him."
"Is he some big shot?" An Ran frowned, "Tell me, I'm going to find dad. Even if we can't kill him, we will never let him go."
"It's not necessary." An Ran said, "Don't worry about this matter. I will solve it myself."
"What can you solve?" An Jing looked a little anxious, "You are being bullied. Just throw him out. Dad and I will solve the problem. We will not let him come to our house in the future. If he cooperates with our family Yes, let’s all tell him to get out!”
"Thank you, An Jing." Although An Jing's advice was of little use to her, An Ran was still grateful for his immediate care.
"Thank you, brother." An Jing said, "You've been a little bit disrespectful to me recently."
"Thank you, brother." Because he was grateful for An Jing at this moment, An Ran was willing to say something he was willing to listen to.
And her well-behavedness made An Jing suddenly feel his heart soften, "You're welcome."
The two walked in silence for a while, and An Jing asked again, "Whether you grow your hair long or wear a skirt, it is your freedom. You don't have to compromise yourself because of other people's indecency. What you have to do is , ignore them, despise them, and be generous to yourself.”
"That's right, An Jing, your ideological level has improved." An Ran smiled, "You are right, but for the time being, I'll leave it at that."
Because she is still dependent on others, because she is far from growing up to the point where she can just do whatever she doesn't want to do.
For now, freedom is a luxury for her.
There were so many things she had to compromise on.
What's a haircut? It's just a very small cost for her to get what she wants.
An Jing felt a little stuck, "You don't have to think about solving everything by yourself, okay? If you encounter trouble, you can try leaving it to me and your parents. We can all help you, and you will save a lot of energy."
"You're right." An Ran's voice was clear and calm in the quiet corridor, "When I encounter trouble now, I can leave it to you and my parents, but relying on you to help me solve it will make me lose my ability to solve these problems independently forever. The ability to question.”
When you no longer exist in the future, I will be like a vine that cannot stand upright. I will always be afraid of losing you, and that will be a disaster. "How is that possible?" An Jing felt that what An Ran said was too exaggerated, "You are still young, this is how you should be."
"Is it supposed to be right?" An Ran asked An Jing word by word.
The latter hesitated for a moment, "No... I just think you are a bit too pushy. In fact, you don't need to be like this. You can just do what you like in peace and quiet. There is no need to think about other things so much, such as yesterday. When you meet someone who is rude to you in the evening, you don’t do anything to him, but you cut your own hair. I don’t think you need to do this at all.”
"Then what do you think I should do?" An Ran raised his head slightly and looked at An Jing, "You think I'm stupid for doing this?"
An Jing didn't answer, but his look said everything.
An Ran glanced at An Jing and smiled nonchalantly, "Just be stupid if you're stupid, as long as it's easy to use."
"Tell me what's useful?" An Jing still disagreed with An Ran's way of solving the problem.
But of course An Ran would not tell him the essential problem, "Your family lives in the sea? It's so lenient."
"I'm just trying to stop you from using some bad tricks and making it seem like there's no one around to help you." An Jing's good intentions were treated as if they were disrespectful, and An Jing lost his temper and spoke a little irritably.
"Women who are too strong are not lovable."
Seeing An Jing's angry look, An Ran became even calmer.
She thought of what An Jing and Hua Zhan said to her every time she had a conflict with others in her previous life.
It's not a flattering sentence, it was her minefield in the previous life.
Therefore, she is afraid that she is not good, good, or lovable.
So she studied hard, worked hard, and improved her abilities. She wanted to prove that she was valuable and worthy of being liked.
But in front of Anya, the real daughter of the An family, all the hard work she had gained could become nothing at any time.
It is too insignificant to rely on others to judge your worth.
She did well, they said:
"You have our support behind you, so you should do well."
"Without you, our platform would only have any high-quality workers."
If she doesn't do well, they will say: "An Ran, what's the use of being so competitive? We've given you so many things, why are you still doing this?"
In a wealthy family, blood connections, connections, resources, everything is more valuable than the efforts of an ordinary person.
An Ran has experienced it and understands it, so she doesn't care anymore.
She wasn't angry with An Jing.
"Okay, I have received your concern. If I encounter trouble in the future, I will tell you as soon as possible, okay?"
Who wouldn't write a bad check? "That's pretty much it." An Jing was satisfied and stopped asking An Ran to ask her questions, "Do you want to go to my room and listen to what I have to say?"
"No, if I go to your house to stay temporarily, if there are too many regulations, I have to go to your room alone to talk, so I'd better not go. It's too troublesome." An Ran had rejection written all over his body.
"Then I'll tell you here." An Jing felt tired and sighed, "Actually, it's nothing. Don't bring others to my house. When my room has a Do Not Disturb sign, don't come in. If you don’t make a mess in your room, there won’t be anything to pay attention to.”
"nothing else?"
"Nothing."
"Okay, I'll go live on campus first. I'll let you know in advance when I want to go to your place."
"Okay, let me know before you come, and I will ask aunt to clean up the guest room next week."
"Thank you."
……
The next day, early morning.
An Ran and Shi Jian met at the school gate while riding bicycles.
When he saw An Ran's short hair at first glance, Shi Jian was a little surprised, but he soon smiled and said, "It's cool."
An Ran laughed while riding his bicycle, "I thought you would find it strange."
"Why is it weird?" Shi Jian smiled happily, "If your new hairstyle makes people feel weird, wouldn't it be interesting?"
"What's your logic?" An Ran felt that Shi Jian's answer did not follow normal logic.
"It's because of something my mother said to me before."
"What?"
"She said that since she was a child, I always did things that she couldn't understand. At first she thought it was strange and couldn't accept it, and she often felt irritable. Until one day, she saw a book."
"what book?"
"I don't remember, but the book says: "You must allow yourself to be a weird kid, a funny kid, a quiet kid, a smart kid, a kid who's good at sports, a kid who's good at acting, a kid who's good at math, and an obedient kid. Talkative children, excellent children, mediocre children, children with poor studies..." 1314 (End of this chapter)