Chapter 319 Siege The wind and snow are still blowing, falling down. On the traversable avenue in the center of the ice and snow barrier, Pinggong Qianye and Qing Xingdeng looked at each other. "me……" Qing Xingdeng was stunned at first, then he blinked, gradually remembering what had just happened, and his fair face flushed like a burnt cloud. So shameful! Was that sentimental, even slightly chuunibyou-like person just now really me? "Now, please help me remember who I am now, or I might forget she ever existed." How did I have the courage to say such a thing? That's definitely not me, it's an illusion! But those words, which sounded a bit immature, full of sadness and as if they were a farewell, echoed back and forth in my heart like a spell. They kept reminding themselves that they had really said such words. How annoying! what!what!what! "You, didn't hear anything just now, right?" After a while, Qing Xingdeng asked cautiously, uneasily, and with some expectation.
Pinggong Qianye smiled and said: "I will help you remember who you are now, and will not let you be forgotten by yourself." "..." Qingxuandeng's expression froze on his face, the corners of his mouth twitched slightly, he turned around silently, clenching and unclenching his fists several times. Pinggong Qianye, who was standing behind her, could clearly see the red clouds spreading around Qingxuandeng's earlobes, and even the back of her fair neck was gradually dyed red. This kind of Qingxuande is the Qingxuande he knows. The sentimental Qingxuande just now really made him feel uncomfortable. Although the purpose of coming to Mount Fuji this time is to help Aoandon merge and return, there are many considerations in how to make the two merge and intersect. At least, Qingxuande's state just now made Pinggong Qianye realize that something was wrong, and he didn't dare to let them merge. If they had merged at that time, perhaps, as Qingxuande said just now, the present her would have been completely replaced and turned into another Qingxuande that was unfamiliar to herself. This is not good. If today's Qingxuan Lanterns were integrated just to fully recreate the Qingxuan Lanterns of the past, how would it be worthy of the hardships and tests along the way? The other half of Qingxuandeng was born in Weilian Ancient Temple, and the existence of the Buddhist girl will completely lose its meaning. "Sister Snow Girl is still in seclusion. Let's go to the ice lake and rest for a while." Qingxuande, who had been turning his back to Pinggong Qianye and keeping a safe distance from him, finally suppressed all the embarrassing emotions he had just felt, and his voice and tone returned to normal. The Ice Lake is located in the center of the entire summit of Mount Fuji. Even though there is continuous snowing and the temperature here has already reached minus 20 to 30 degrees Celsius, it still does not freeze. It is like a clear mirror, reflecting the clouds passing by in the sky and the sun occasionally peeking out from the clouds. Qing Xingdeng sat on a flat stone by the lake, his chin supported by his right hand, staring at the lake in a daze. She couldn't understand why she had just said something that was clearly out of character. Could it be that just because the two were about to merge into one, his temperament temporarily changed? Or was it that the dormant subconscious of the Qingxuande in the past woke up at that moment? "Do you know what kind of Qingxuandeng you were in the past?"
Pinggong Qianye, who was sitting a little further away, was still holding the Buddhist girl from his own temple in his arms. The Buddhist girl should not be too close to the Qingxingdeng at this moment, otherwise the two will automatically merge. Aggregation is an instinct. He couldn't keep blocking the convergence of the two, as this would definitely stimulate the awakening of the subconscious of the previous Qingxuande. "Sister Snow Girl said that I used to be mature, dignified, elegant, withdrawn, taciturn, and liked to be alone in silence." "Hey, you are the complete opposite of who you are now." "What!" Qing Xingdeng turned sideways and looked at Pinggong Qianye angrily. He held a snowball in his hand and threw it at Pinggong Qianye's head. "Now I am also very dignified and elegant!" "If you hadn't thrown snowballs at me, I might have admitted it." “…I’ll throw you away! I’ll throw you away, you annoying guy!” The snowballs in Qingxuandeng's hand were thrown at Pinggong Qianye like a machine gun. Looking at Pinggong Qianye hugging another self and dodging the snowball attack, she couldn't help but laugh out loud, feeling happy and all the gloom from before was gone. Soon, Aoandon put on a stern face again and stopped her childish behavior of throwing snowballs. She was the mature, dignified and elegant big monster Aoandon! boom! Pinggong Qianye secretly pinched a snowball and threw it in a beautiful straight line, hitting Qingxuande accurately in the face. With a snap, the snowball exploded on Qingxuande's face, and snowflakes flew everywhere. "Despicable! You're attacking by surprise!" Qingxuande's eyes suddenly became sharp. He stood up, gathered the surrounding wind and snow, and threw snowballs at Pinggong Qianye. Is this childish behavior? No, this is glorious revenge! After playing around for a while and hitting Pinggong Qianye with three snowballs in succession, Qingxuande felt completely relaxed, and the light in his eyes was bright and colorful. Qing Xingdeng returned to the lakeside and sat down on the rock. Thinking he had won a great victory, he hummed a little tune and swung his feet gently. "Look, this is you now, unrestrained and free." Hiramachi Chiye's voice came over, and this time Qingxuande did not say anything mature, elegant, and dignified, but instead accepted Hiramachi Chiye's evaluation of him. "You may have always thought that you, who are so genuine, are not as good as the great monster Qingxuande in the past. Because in your eyes, and even in the eyes of many monsters, Qingxuande, the guardian of the underworld, should be a quiet, solitary existence away from the hustle and bustle. " "Isn't that so?" Qing Xingdeng whispered softly. "of course not." Pinggong Qianye answered confidently: "The new you shows a completely different side from the previous Qingxuande. It's not because you are missing your other half, but because the you now is also the self that the former Qingxuande longed for and wanted to become." "..." Qing Xingdeng's expression was moved, his eyes were shining, staring at Pinggong Qianye, and said very seriously: "Aren't you trying to comfort me?"
"Buddhism does not allow falsehood. This is the most true thought in my heart." Pinggong Chiye also answered this question very seriously. In a besieged city, people inside want to get out, and people outside want to get in. The Qingxuandeng of the past may have longed for another different self from the bottom of her heart, so when she was reborn, she showed a side that was completely different from her previous self. Quiet and solitary people prefer lively atmosphere, mature and steady people want to act spontaneously, elegant and dignified people prefer freedom and carefreeness. People are the same, always yearning for a completely different self. Sometimes they wonder, if they had this or that personality, would everything be better or different? In a sense, they are all denying their own existence. The awakening of Qingxuande's subconscious just now came from Qingxuande's denial of himself. This kind of thinking is very bad and needs to be corrected in time. "That's great. Even if you are just comforting me, I am still very happy." Qingxuandeng smiled brilliantly, and his sparkling eyes were like ice crystals in the sun. (End of this chapter)