Chapter 96 The Origin of Narcolepsy Although the driver had a bad temper, he was actually quite enthusiastic. He was afraid that something might happen to Jin Shiming, so not only did he help call 120, he also braved the heavy rain and brought Jin Shaoqing an umbrella that he was too busy to take. "Handsome guy, since you're okay, I'll call the ambulance and tell them not to come." The driver was relieved to see that Jin Shiming was getting better. "I'm sorry to have caused you trouble!" Jin Shiming struggled to stand up and apologized to the driver. Jin Shaoqing thanked the kind driver again and again in his broken Chinese. "I'm glad you're okay, handsome guy! But I have to say one thing, the way you looked when you had an attack just now was really scary. It's best to take some time to go to the hospital for a check-up, so you can have peace of mind!" After the driver said this, he ran towards his car in the heavy rain. Jin Shaoqing went back to pick up the things that were left in the car, and stuffed two large bills into the driver's pocket before closing the door. No matter what, they had caused trouble for the driver and made him get wet in the rain, so it was only natural that they should give him some money as compensation and gratitude. Jin Shaoqing was carrying a large bag in one hand, holding an umbrella in the other, and holding a bouquet of flowers in his arms. He was walking in the rain, looking quite embarrassed. Especially now that she was all wet, with her long hair sticking to her cheeks, she looked like a poor stray cat.
However, this weak and tender girl just now burst out with a strong character and tolerance beyond her age. In Jin Shiming's eyes, Jin Shaoqing at this moment inexplicably exuded a kind of beauty that made his heart beat fast. Kim Tae-hee and Jun Ji-hyun are not as beautiful as Kim So-jeong! Jin Shiming immediately stepped forward, wanting to help Jin Shaoqing share some of the burden. "Oppa, just sit still and don't move. I can do it!" Seeing this, Jin Shaoqing hurriedly spoke up to stop him. Jin Shiming sighed helplessly. This time he was really embarrassed. Although he felt ashamed, Jin Shiming couldn't help but feel fortunate that Jin Shaoqing was by his side. If Jin Shaoqing hadn't been there, he might have completely collapsed! Jin Shaoqing put down the bag, sat down next to Jin Shiming, and breathed a sigh of relief. Until now, her tense spirit relaxed, and she immediately felt a sense of weakness sweeping over her body. "It's raining so hard now that we can't visit the graves. Let's take shelter here for a while." Jin Shiming said, looking at the rain outside the platform. He took out a clean towel from his pocket and helped Jin Shaoqing wipe her long hair which was dripping with water. "Oppa, you're wet too, wipe yourself first." Jin Shaoqing said in a low voice, his face slightly flushed, a little embarrassed to look at Jin Shiming who was so close. Jin Shiming smiled back but didn't say anything. He just gently wiped the rain off Jin Shaoqing's face. Jin Shaoqing simply leaned in Jin Shiming's arms, silently enjoying Jin Shiming's care and tenderness. "Do you feel cold?" Jin Shiming asked softly. "It's not cold! It's very warm!" Jin Shaoqing shook his head and leaned into Jin Shiming's arms. The most beautiful thing is not the rainy day, but the eaves where I once sheltered from the rain with you. One day, the rain that was once so cold will turn into warm tears and flow down. "Oppa, it's great to have you here!"
"Ditto...Me too!" …… The rain showed no signs of stopping any time soon. Jin Shiming and Jin Shaoqing held the umbrella together and leaned quietly on each other's shoulders. "Aqing, I may understand the root cause of my narcolepsy." Jin Shiming said suddenly. "Really?" Jin Shaoqing couldn't help but show joy. As long as we know the cause of the disease, there is a possibility of cure. In this way, Jin Shiming can live a normal life and no longer have to worry about falling into a deep sleep suddenly. "When I was sitting in the car just now, I remembered some fragments of the day of the accident, as well as some things that I couldn't remember at all." Jin Shiming said slowly. The strong sense of déjà vu before caused Jin Shiming to have a serious irritation reaction. At the same time, the fragments of memory that he subconsciously tried to avoid and was unwilling to face emerged and gradually became clearer. "Remember the video we watched together last night, the game where I missed the three-peat?" Jin Shiming asked. "Well, Oppa, you were crying very sadly." Jin Shaoqing nodded. Jin Shiming's crying look was so adorable at that time that it almost melted Jin Shaoqing's heart. She even secretly took a screenshot and put it in her mobile phone. "After that, my parents never forced me to learn anything or participate in various competitions. But I was still unwilling to give up and wanted to make a comeback to avenge my previous failure." Although Jin Shiming was a good boy when he was young, he was a little rebellious at heart, and behind his good temper there was a bit of arrogance. His parents no longer forced him to learn music and dance, and he felt a little uncomfortable. It was at this moment that he realized that he actually liked music and dance. It was just that due to long-term high-intensity practice and competition, he felt a little resistant and tired. "In the next two years, the intensity and frequency of my practice decreased, but the improvement in my strength became more and more obvious, as if I had completely figured it out. In that singing competition, I won two consecutive championships very smoothly again." Jin Shiming continued. Even though Jin Shiming had no intention of showing off, Jin Shaoqing, as an ordinary person, couldn't help feeling depressed at being hit by a gifted monster. She had watched the video and knew that Jin Shiming at that time could already be called a "musical prodigy" with a talent that surpassed all his peers. As a result, he can even achieve "enlightenment in Longchang" and continue to evolve as if there is no limit. Isn't that infuriating? "So, Oppa, did you finally realize your wish and achieve three consecutive championships?" Jin Shaoqing asked curiously. "No, not only did I not win the championship, I didn't even make it to the finals." Jin Shiming sneered. "Ah? Even if you made some mistakes, you shouldn't even make it to the finals, right? Unless..." Jin Shaoqing guessed the most likely scenario. That is the shady deal. The organizers of the tournament didn't want Jin Shiming to win the championship for the third time in a row, so they used tricks to eliminate him! "At that time, I didn't quite understand those complicated calculations. I felt wronged and angry, and I locked myself in the room for a long time and sulked. Even my parents' persuasion was useless. My parents couldn't persuade me, so they had to postpone the date when the whole family would go to the peninsula as originally planned." Jin Shiming said quietly. If he had not been angry and had left for the peninsula with his parents as originally planned, they would not have delayed the departure until his birthday and the car accident could have been avoided. Therefore, Jin Shiming, who survived alone after the car accident, was very miserable.
He subconsciously felt that he was the cause of the tragedy and that he was responsible for his parents' death. The double torture from physical and mental suffering caused Jin Shiming to collapse at one point. Then he "forgot" these memories that he didn't want to face. To use a loose metaphor, from that moment on, Jin Shiming's soul was no longer complete. Part of his mind, or soul, spirit, personality, memory, etc., was split off by the self-protection mechanism and fell into a deep sleep for a long time. This is also why Jin Shiming quickly cheered up after going to the peninsula. Even if I occasionally think back to the car accident, I will only feel sadness and pain, and not fall into endless self-blame and regret. It was not until he was about to debut that he accidentally touched a "key" and opened the sealed "panama box". Since then, he has suffered from narcolepsy. "Oppa, what exactly happened to you on the eve of your debut?" Jin Shaoqing could barely understand Jin Shiming's words. Even though it may sound idealistic and unscientific at first glance, there are many things in the world that are difficult to explain scientifically, not to mention the incredibly wonderful mind. "When the company arranged my debut, I couldn't help but think of my father. He had always been looking forward to my development in the direction of music. If he could see my debut with his own eyes, he would surely be very pleased." Jin Shiming said sadly. "Out of commemoration and remembrance, I plan to take out the hand microphone he used and use it on my debut stage, which can be regarded as a kind of inheritance." On his debut stage, holding his father's relics and singing the music he loved all his life, that was the best way Jin Shiming could think of to commemorate his father. "That night, I found a large cardboard box in the attic of my home, which contained some important relics brought from China to the peninsula." Before this, Jin Shiming had never opened the box. He only vaguely remembered that when his grandparents were helping to sort out his father's belongings, they put the microphone that his father usually used among them. "Soon, I found a small leather box inside, which contained the microphone that my dad had customized for me. I remember when I was a kid, I envied his microphone very much, and I thought it was super cool, so I begged him to make one for me from time to time." Speaking of this, Jin Shiming couldn't help but smile bitterly. "But I didn't expect that he actually prepared something for me! After I was eliminated behind the scenes, he saw how depressed I was. In order to encourage me not to give up my love for music, he secretly prepared a surprise for me on my birthday." "He customized a microphone for me. The overall style is almost the same as the one he uses. The only difference is that the word '' is plated in gold at the end." , the meaning is self-evident. Even though Jin Shiming was eliminated due to shady dealings, in the eyes of his parents, he is always the undisputed ! “When I saw the microphone and the words on it, I immediately remembered the competition, and then recalled those forgotten memories.” The part of Jin Shiming's mind that had split apart and fallen into sleep was then awakened. But the crack in the soul has not disappeared, and it cannot be healed in a short period of time, so it is difficult to return to wholeness. As a side effect of the reintegration process, Jin Shiming suffered from occasional bouts of narcolepsy. At the same time, the self-protection mechanism was also familiar, and once again sealed some of Jin Shiming's memories that he could not bear temporarily.
As for the extra memories that Jin Shiming has every time he suffers from narcolepsy, it is really difficult to explain the reasons in words. Jin Shiming could only vaguely perceive that the part of his split mind seemed to be in another dimension, witnessing different things. When his narcolepsy strikes and his mind merges, some of his memories will be instilled into Jin Shiming's brain. Well, it’s nonsense, but Jin Shiming thinks it is the most reasonable interpretation. (End of this chapter)
