Chapter 57: Lemon The candlelight lit up, and the living room immediately returned to its previous warm and bright appearance. The TV was still playing the video, but the protagonist, the little boy wearing a birthday crown and riding on the carousel, was replaced by Jin Shiming. The camera moved horizontally to the dining table, and a couple suddenly appeared on both sides of Jin Shiming's back. Jin Shiming, whose face could not be seen, slowly raised his hands and began to make a wish towards the birthday cake. After making his birthday wish, he was hesitant to blow out the candles. The picture seemed to be frozen in that frame, except that the candle was getting shorter and shorter until it was completely extinguished. In the dark, old room, Jin Shiming opened his eyes, picked up another candle from the table and lit it. This time, Jin Shiming did not make a wish. He turned sideways and leaned lightly in the woman's arms, his eyes gazing longingly at the man holding the DV.
When the candle went out, Jin Shiming staggered. He stretched out his hand and gently stroked the side of his face, as if looking for the warm touch that was as reassuring as a harbor. After that, Jin Shiming consumed the birthday candles again and again, immersing himself in the woven illusory dream like drinking poison to quench thirst. Soon, there was only one candle left on the table. The bright red candles seemed to imply that something unfortunate would happen if they were lit. But Jin Shiming still chose to light it. The camera gives a close-up of the red candle, and a cluster of enchanting sparks rises up. The fire spread out, reflecting a blood-red color in Jin Shiming's pupils. Jin Shiming seemed to see something from it. He squatted down with his head in his hands in pain, shouting at the top of his lungs. The candlelight went out, and the darkness around them seemed to have turned into a group of wild beasts that had started hunting. They continuously devoured all light sources and sounds, imprisoning Jin Shiming in a pitch-black cage. Jin Shiming was completely lost. After trying several times without success, he gave up looking for a way out and allowed himself to be swallowed by the darkness. Just as Jin Shiming closed his eyes in despair, a blue butterfly entered his sight. The blue butterfly emitting faint light is so eye-catching and beautiful in this dark world. Jin Shiming's attention was instantly attracted by the butterfly, and he took another step in the direction of its flight. The butterfly flew neither fast nor slow, stopping in the air for a short while from time to time, waiting for Jin Shiming from behind to catch up before continuing to fly forward. Unconsciously, the darkness gradually receded like the tide. The blue butterfly seemed to know that it had completed its mission and did not continue flying forward. It slowly descended downwards, and Jin Shiming subconsciously stretched out his hand. The moment the butterfly landed on Jin Shiming's finger, a white light appeared on the screen.
At the same time, the train whistle at the beginning of the MV was also sounded. A train whizzed by, but the camera remained fixed in one place and did not move with the train. Only after the end of the train leaves the screen does the camera turn to the direction from which the train came. Jin Shiming was walking on the track, heading firmly in the opposite direction, heading far away. A blue butterfly landed on his shoulder, fluttering its wings gently. At the end of the track, which is also the end of this snow-covered wilderness, a blue sea appears on the horizon. The camera moved down and could see a few scattered wild flowers blooming on the road near Jin Shiming's feet. The white wilderness covered with ice and snow was rejuvenated with the vitality of spring because of the wild flowers dotted among them. The blue butterfly flapped its wings vigorously, left Jin Shiming's shoulder, and flew into the distant sky. Jin Shiming looked at the direction where the butterfly flew away, smiled and waved. After bidding farewell to the butterfly, he continued on his way like a pilgrim, heading towards the blue sea. The MV ends here, and the picture freezes on Jin Shiming's back as he walks forward. …… Jin Shiming poured a lot of emotion into the title song "Spring Day" and the MV he shot. He even went so far as to tear open his own scars and dig out those past events that he didn't want to mention from the corner of his memory. The reason why Jin Shiming wrote this song was not to express his sentimentality, nor was it to complain without reason. All along, he had never really resolved the knot in his heart, but chose to escape and was unwilling to face it again. Indeed, escape is useful. Time can dilute everything and heal the wounds. But after the wound heals, the scar will still not disappear, reminding us of the pain at any time. In Jin Shiming's view, he has been escaping for so many years. With this period of respite, recuperation and growth, he has now become much more mature and stronger. It's time to say goodbye to the past, break down and rebuild, and start a new stage! "In a few days, it will be my parents' death anniversary. I'll go back home to sweep their graves this year!" Jin Shiming took off his headphones and whispered to himself. In the past few years, Jin Shiming has not returned to China to pay homage to his parents on their death anniversaries or on festivals such as Qingming Festival. Firstly, he was still young at the time, and had to trouble his grandparents to accompany him when traveling between China and the peninsula. It is time-consuming and costly, and will make the two elders suffer the pain of losing their daughter and son-in-law again. Secondly, Jin Shiming was quite resistant at the time. He was always unwilling to face up to the accident that year, nor was he willing to accept the cruel truth. If he went to visit his parents' graves, it would be as if they would completely leave him and go to another world! Therefore, even when his grandparents held similar tomb-sweeping ceremonies at home, Jin Shiming would choose to escape and never participate. "I haven't visited you for so many years. You must be very disappointed, right?" Jin Shiming muttered.
However, based on Jin Shiming's understanding of his parents, perhaps they are more worried and anxious than disappointed. Therefore, even for the sake of the deceased, the living should live a wonderful life. "The deceased just happened to lose their lives, and we are just lucky to be alive in this world for a while. We who happen to be alive should not be afraid of death." After re-examining life and death, Jin Shiming had some insights to a certain extent. With his life experience and wisdom, he naturally could not see through the true meaning of life and death, but he at least understood one thing. Living in the moment! Not the past and the future, but the present. Jin Shiming was suddenly blessed and a melody popped up in his mind. Jin Shiming quickly opened the music arrangement software and completed a complete music score in a short time. "Let's take the lemon-like bitterness that life brings to you and me, and turn it into the sweetness of lemonade. Let's call this song "Lemon"." Thinking so, Jin Shiming decided on the title of this newly created song that would gently embrace the hurting people. Coincidentally, this song can be included in the second season "Summer" of the Four Seasons Special. (End of this chapter)