Such medical records can be retrieved, and whether they are private or not is just a matter of face.
"I was definitely hurt by the breakup. After all, we'd been together for eight years and were about to get married, so breaking up was definitely heartbreaking," Lin Fan recalled calmly. "Around that time, the company was facing another crisis. I was originally a department manager, a lowly position, but one with some management authority. Suddenly, a relative of the boss was brought in as deputy manager."
"My previous company wasn't very big to begin with, and as a small boss, I had only a few people under me. Suddenly, they were saying they were going to add a deputy position, which was completely unnecessary from a business perspective. I originally thought that relative was just being brought in to collect a salary, and if she didn't do anything, it wouldn't have affected anything, but I didn't expect her to be so hardworking."
"She doesn't do her job properly and is incredibly good at causing trouble. She always pretends to be doing the best for the company, but ends up making a complete mess. When I told her to leave it alone, she started complaining that I was sidelining her and started crying to her relative, the boss. The boss didn't say anything to me, but he didn't say anything to her either."
"She wanted to be in charge, so I couldn't just leave her in charge. I could only let her follow up on the work that was almost finished. She didn't have to do anything, just watch. Even then, she ended up in a mess."
"If it's done well, it's all her credit. If it's bad, it's all my fault. In less than a month, several of my subordinates were so frustrated that they said they would leave if the deputy director didn't leave. I was pushed too hard, so I went to the boss to have a good talk."
"The boss thought I was using one of his men to threaten him with Joe, so he started scolding me instead. Ha! What kind of ideology does he have? Does he think I don't know what's going on?" Lin Fan snorted coldly. "I was already annoyed, but I figured we'd been working together for so many years and things had been pretty harmonious, so I just had to put up with it. His scolding just pissed me off. I'd worked so hard for him, and he'd gotten me into a bad habit. I quit right there and then."
"That boss didn't expect me to quit so suddenly and wanted to keep me, but I didn't want to serve him. I was already feeling down after the breakup, and now I have to endure the humiliation at work. Whoever wants to serve me can do it. I didn't even ask for compensation and just walked out the next day. Several of my subordinates were already thinking of leaving, but I persuaded them to stay. When they saw me go for the talk, they resigned first and handed in their resignations."
"After I resigned, I didn't plan to stay in Gaohe City for long. I went straight back to my hometown. I wanted to calm down and take a break before going back to work. After all, I've been working outside for so many years and it's pretty tiring."
"After I came back, to quickly forget the bad mood, I signed up for a fitness class, learned piano and guzheng, and even took two foreign language classes. I also went traveling from time to time. Looking back, this was probably the most carefree and happy period of my life."
John Woo and Jin Sichen listened quietly on the side.
The information in Lin Fan's file wasn't that detailed. After all, it only took three days to investigate, and all they had was some written material. That was where he was from year to year, what he had done, and what awards he had received.
For example, the paragraph she just mentioned only stated her position, salary, and that she left for personal reasons. A detailed investigation could uncover these details, but it would take time. It's not as detailed as the person involved.
"Do you think your depression has nothing to do with a broken heart?" Hearing that Lin Fan was a straightforward and frank person, Jin Sichen didn't need to be too careful when communicating with him.
"I can't say there's absolutely no connection, but I don't think the breakup was the direct cause of my depression." Lin Fan thought for a moment and said, "After all, there was almost a year between my breakup and my illness. During that time, I was doing okay."
"It sounds like you have your own judgment on the cause of the disease?" Jin Sichen found that Lin Fan was a well-organized person who was very easy to communicate with.
"I feel it's caused by family factors." During those days of wild thoughts, she sorted out a lot of things.
"Can you tell me more about that?"
"I was 32 when I broke up. Being unmarried at this age might be normal in big cities, but it's rare in my area. So when I went back and told my family I'd broken up, their expressions... I don't know how to describe it."
"Are you shocked?" Jin Sichen prompted.
"They seemed more angry than shocked." Lin Fan thought carefully. "They were very angry that I had waited so long to get married and ended up breaking up. After I explained the reason, they got even angrier, but they were mostly angry at the man. Later, they didn't blame me much, but they didn't feel any pity or sympathy either."
"If it's convenient, could you tell me the reason why you broke up?" There wasn't much description in the medical records, but from what Lin Fan said, it seemed to be quite related.
"It's not really inconvenient. After graduating from university, I found a good job in Gaohe City, the same one I quit earlier. I'm capable, conscientious, and have a good personality. Within a few years, I was promoted to a department supervisor. Although I can't afford a house yet, I have enough food and clothing, and my bank balance is growing steadily. Everything is going well."
"Then I met a boy who I thought was honest and had a good personality, so we started dating. Our relationship was stable and we even met each other's parents. Just when I thought life was going to unfold happily, we eventually broke up."
"There wasn't any clichéd storyline about cheating. It was mainly because we had very different perspectives on things. After eight years together, we couldn't get along. Instead, conflicts increased towards the end, and we were always arguing. At first, I didn't want to break up. After all, eight years of dedication was real. Although I had some hesitations, I still proposed marriage. But when I went to his house to discuss marriage, the difference in our views on marriage dealt a fatal blow to me."
"His family is from the countryside and their financial situation is average, so I didn't think about asking for a house from the beginning. His income is not high, and I was worried that he couldn't afford the betrothal gift. My family disagreed and was prepared to use my own savings as a betrothal gift."
"I didn't expect their family to say a word about these things. Instead, they made all kinds of harsh demands on me. When I said I couldn't do it, I was criticized in every way. The person I wanted to entrust my life to completely ignored my helpless situation and didn't even offer a word of support. He chose to stand with his family. I felt tired and chose to break up."
Although it had been several years since the incident, Lin Fan still didn't know whether to laugh or cry when he recalled the scene where the man sadly asked her why she couldn't compromise a little for him when he heard her say she wanted to break up.
"You must have been very sad at that time?" Jin Sichen said softly.
"It's sad for sure, but not breaking up is definitely a dead end. Love has always been a two-way journey for two people. I'm trying hard, and he's waiting for me to try hard. I still have the strength for a short time, but I'll get tired after a long time. Look, we've only persisted for 8 years." Lin Fan said self-deprecatingly.
John Woo listened silently. The file only said they'd broken up, but he hadn't expected this to happen. A relationship where only one person puts effort in can't last. It's better to break up.
"What's next?"
"Then I went home. Breaking up hurt, after all, it was eight years... Resigning wasn't easy either. When I first joined that company, it only had about ten people. I worked hard, doing business well, improving the company's reputation, expanding the client base, and gradually working my way up to manager. My personal business volume alone accounts for half of the company's."
"In the following years, the client base remained stable, with no significant increase. My boss complained about my high salary and tried to find an excuse to reduce my salary and demote me, but I blocked his offer. He didn't even consider that he was only using the money to buy cars and houses, and to buy bags for his mistress, instead of expanding the company. No matter how many clients I brought him, the company wouldn't be able to take them."
"He didn't want to fire me, but he didn't want to pay me such a high salary either, so he asked that relative to check me and find an excuse to reduce my salary and demote me. I didn't buy his tricks, and the entire department was gone with me. It was very refreshing at the time, but I still felt very disappointed afterwards."
Lin Fan knew the principle that when the cunning rabbit dies, the running dog is cooked, but knowing it was different from what he had experienced.
"At the time, because I didn't want to affect my work, I bottled up the emotions of my breakup and never felt relieved. Add to that the emotions I felt after quitting my job, and I was completely devastated. I didn't want to stay in Gaohe City, that sad place, and be reminded of the past, so I wanted to go back to my hometown for a change of pace. Don't they say home is a warm harbor and a constant source of support? I didn't expect that to be the case for me."
"After a week of quiet time back home, my family started urging me to get married. After all, we were in a relationship for eight years and it hadn't been that long since we broke up, and now they're asking me to find someone else to fall in love with. I can't do that."
Lin Fan hadn't recovered from her emotional pain yet, and her family was already so anxious, which caused her serious harm.
No matter how much she explained to her parents, saying she needed more time, no one listened. Lin's mother even acted like, "It's good enough that someone wants to date you. Why are you being so picky?" This made Lin Fan wonder if she was her real mother.
The constant harassment from blind dates made it impossible for Lin Fan to adjust his mindset. No matter how he explained it to his parents, it didn't work.
In the name of love, and with the fear of being laughed at, they kept driving Lin Fan away, seemingly not caring at all about their daughter's sadness. It seemed that as long as Lin Fan got married and no one gossiped about her, they would be relieved, not caring at all whether their daughter was truly happy.
After 8 years of operation, Lin Fan, who thought that the next step would be the end of his happy future, was heartbroken.
Because he refused to cooperate with his boss's little tricks, he gave up the career he had worked hard for for many years and was filled with frustration.
Her family's lack of understanding and emotionless urging were like sharp knives stabbing her.
Lin Fan felt like he couldn't think straight anymore, his temples were throbbing and his ears were buzzing.
She felt like she was stuck in a quagmire, as if dozens of hands were pulling her down.
She sensed danger but couldn't avoid it.
On this day, Lin's mother urged her to get married as usual.
Lin Fan said that if they were in such a hurry to get married without having time to get to know each other properly, they would end up getting divorced even if they got married.
Mother Lin blurted out, "Even if we have to get a divorce, we have to get married first!" After that, Lin Fan seemed to hear the sound of her crumbling heart collapsing, and she knew it was over.
Lin Fan stopped talking. She refused to eat or move, lying in bed all day.
At first, the family thought Lin Fan was being vindictive and was deliberately ignoring her.
It wasn't until she hadn't eaten for two days that Lin's father felt something was wrong but couldn't wake Lin Fan up that they panicked and hurriedly carried Lin Fan to the hospital for emergency treatment.
After a series of operations, the hospital found that Lin Fan's vital signs were normal but his expression was dull, so they recommended transferring him to a mental hospital.
In this way, Lin Fan was diagnosed as a high-risk patient with severe depression and no desire to live, and stayed in a mental hospital for 3 months.
Mother Lin no longer dared to nag Lin Fan in his ear, and she didn't even dare to cry in front of her bed.