All her emotions were instantly shattered by the boy's actions. The boy once again told her with his actions that everything was just her wishful thinking. I opened my eyes and looked at the busy figure in the kitchen without saying a word. My fingers were deeply embedded in my palms. It hurt, but not as much as the pain in my heart. Sitting up and leaving the sofa, Gui Yanxin walked over barefoot and stopped in front of the kitchen. She was too timid to walk in openly like before, and hugged the boy's waist and acted coquettishly. The more they compared, the more they found the gap between them. All kinds of grievances lingered in her heart, and her eyes were moist and warm again, but she had lost the qualifications to ask the boy for comfort and hug. ... She walked into the bathroom woodenly, took off all her clothes, and the cold water sprayed out from the shower head, falling on her skin, causing an icy and uncomfortable touch. She just stood there stupidly, without leaving or dodging, repeating the action of rubbing the shower gel like a robot. The water flows down the hair and down the cheeks, from the forehead to the eyes, and then from the eyes to the chin. For a moment, she couldn't tell whether it was water or tears that fell on her body. She kept washing like this for a long time. Gui Yan turned off the shower and didn't wipe the water stains on her body. She put on her pajamas and walked out of the bathroom wetly. She walked in front of the boy, very childishly and stubbornly, wanting to use this method to exchange for his softness and concern. But the result was that the boy not only did not express any reaction to her wet body, but also expressed dissatisfaction because she wet the floor and table.
It's not like that. Obviously, it's not like that. The boy would never get angry at her for a little thing, nor would he frown and point behind her with an impatient look, letting her blow dry her hair by herself. He has changed, become so strange, so strange... Seeing the boy lowering his head and continuing to eat as if nothing had happened, Gui Yanxinmei could no longer suppress the grievances she had accumulated before. She grabbed the food on the turntable and threw it directly to the floor, breaking it into pieces. The glass scratched her foot, and the red blood that flowed out mixed with the emotions that she had released in an instant, and the burning pain With tears in her eyes, she stared at him silently, hoping that this would get his attention. The young man slammed the table and stood up, his face frighteningly gloomy, "What the hell are you doing? If you have something to say, just say it. Why are you slamming the table for no reason?" Gui Yan was stunned for a moment, and her heart suddenly ached. Tada-kun is scolding her Obviously, he had never scolded himself before. My eyes were red, and countless grievances and pains flooded my heart. The boy in front of her ignored her and just sneered and continued to rub salt into her wounds. "I, Tada Qingyou, don't think I have done anything wrong to you. From the signing of the agreement to now, what have I not done properly? I have always gone along with you in everything. As long as it is not a request that goes beyond the limit, everything has been done according to your wishes." "But think about it, we are just an employer-employer relationship. If it wasn't for the repayment, I wouldn't stay here at all." "After one year, when the contract is over, I will move out and not be a nuisance to you. Then we can go our separate ways and become strangers to each other." Every word of the boy was like a sharp knife, ruthlessly and coldly piercing her heart, turning it bloody in an instant. Yes, it was all her own fault. She disturbed his peaceful life. She had been making trouble under the guise of a creditor, which disgusted him. Gui Yanxinmei bit her lips tightly, the pain in her chest was almost numb. "Employer relationship? Just for repayment?"
Using the calmest tone to cover up the desperate pain, it seems that she is asking the boy, but in fact, she is just answering the answer she has always wanted. Since he hates her so much, then fine, I will do as he wishes. She returned to the bedroom, took out the previously drafted contract terms, and tore them off piece by piece in front of the other party. Just like her heart at the moment, it fell into the deepest valley and broke into pieces. "From now on, we are strangers" After she finished her words hoarsely while suppressing her sobs and trembling, Gui Yan Xinmei knew that the warmth she had been longing for had completely left her that night. ---- Moved back to the original residence, the huge luxury apartment is empty and cold Lianyue and Yueyue would come over to accompany her for a while during the day. Facing their worries and concerns, Gui Yanxinmei remained calm and pretended to be strong, continuing to complete her daily workload as if nothing had happened. But every time the middle of the night came, she was awakened again and again by her childhood nightmares. She instinctively reached out to the side, hoping for warmth and comfort, but there was nothing beside her. She hugged an empty It was pitch black outside the window. She was overwhelmed by fear and helplessness. She could only curl herself up in the quilt, tears pouring out like a broken dam. She couldn't control herself. She is not as strong as she looks in the eyes of ordinary people. She also has a fragile side, but she cannot show this side to others because it is a fatal weakness that can be exploited by people with ulterior motives, destroying all her efforts in the past few years in an instant. Then he turned back to his childhood, lowly and humble like a rat in a sewer, even having trouble getting enough food and clothing every day So, even Yue didn't know she had such a vulnerable side. It's not that she doesn't trust him, this is already the last guarantee. But in front of the boy, she showed her most vulnerable side without any concealment. Just because the boy crushed the starlight, it was a bag of fantasy that fell into her dream Without any reservation or concealment, I love you to my core, even the last line of defense is abandoned. But the boy never really took this matter to heart. Just like herself, she is just an insignificant existence. Thinking of what the boy said to her on the day they parted, Gui Yan felt as if a needle was piercing her chest, one needle after another. The pain is so severe that I am about to faint. Clutching a corner of the quilt, burying my head in the soaked pillow, silently venting my sadness and pain The tears in her eyes never stopped falling, just like her lingering attachment to the boy, which never stopped falling. She still couldn't forget the boy. Whenever she thought of him, her longing for him would flood into her mind like a tide. She couldn't stop it. She really misses Tada-kun, she misses him so much... I really want to embrace him as a couple, hold him tightly, and never let go. I really want to leave kiss marks of my own on his fair neck. I really want his handsome face to only smile at me.
I really want his life to have my shadow and breath I really want to be gently caressed by his fingers, to be under him, and to do some comfortable things for the family. But these are just her delusions after all. Because Tada-kun doesn't like her at all Pulling the curtains to block the pouring sunlight in the morning, the girl closed her dim eyes, willing to continue to be wrapped in darkness She has become a person again.
Chapter 47: A quick glance, and we will never meet again Time flies. It has been more than two months since the boy moved away. In addition to completing a large amount of work tasks every day, she would always hang out near the boy's office from time to time, hoping to create some chance encounters. Unfortunately, this little thought has never been realized. It's funny, we were in the same school, and she pretended to be unintentional but was intentional, so we only saw each other a few times a week. As the number of chance encounters became less and less, she began to cherish the time she saw the boy. Every time I hide far away, stand in a small corner, and stare at him/her infatuatedly, until he/she is completely far away, then I reluctantly withdraw my gaze. She despised herself more than once for her perverted and idiotic behavior, and cursed herself for not living up to her expectations. But what else could she do? Every time she saw the boy, her eyes would look uncontrollably at him, as if she was possessed by a demon or under a spell. ... After lunch, Gui Yanxinmei wanted to go back to the office to continue working, but her body subconsciously went in the opposite direction, toward a certain place. That's where the teenagers often go. Perhaps because she missed him so much, she wanted to try her luck there. Fortunately, she actually saw him. In the lush bamboo forest, the slender figure suddenly came into view. The mottled shadows of the trees were cast on the mossy stone road, casting a shadow on half of the boy's face. His long eyelashes fluttered slightly, and his black and white eyes flashed with fragmented light, as bright as a galaxy. There were dead leaves and weeds stuck to his clean white shirt. He patted it as he walked. His handsome face was calm and composed, which was amazing. She is still as beautiful as before, with fair and tender skin. It must feel so good to touch that you can't let it go. Compared to myself, he really hasn't changed. Gui Yanxinmei pursed her lips and touched the corners of her eyes with her fingers. The bags under her eyes were heavier, and the dark circles there must be very obvious. Working hard day and night made her look more and more haggard. If she continued like this, her skin might gradually become dull and yellow, showing the decadent appearance of a middle-aged woman. As for the boy, he is still the dream lover of many girls, an unattainable cold male god. After graduation, he will be admitted to the University of Tokyo for further studies. With his extraordinary learning talent, he will be recruited by major companies as soon as he enters the society.
From then on, he became a popular figure and the object of admiration and worship. As for myself, I am just an insignificant passer-by in the other person's life, unable to stir up any waves, and unable to leave even a shadow. The little bit of loss in my heart was growing and spreading, and finally it gathered more and more, flooding my entire heart. It turns out that the distance between her and Tada-kun is so far. ... Because of some things, she went to the office, still cold and indifferent, taciturn. The head teacher smiled and praised her for winning the gold medal in the piano competition last week. Gui Yan was happy and perfunctory, still thinking about the work content later. But within the next minute, a man's angry shout came from the office next door. "Tada-kun!" When these three words came into her ears, she was stunned on the spot. Tada-kun, right next door After reaching this conclusion, my heart began to pound. The boy's face naturally occupied my mind, and I no longer had the desire to continue working. She immediately pretended to be calm and made an excuse to go back to class. The head teacher had no objection and accompanied her out. The long and quiet corridor, the door of the office next to it was half open. She deliberately slowed down her pace when passing by and glanced inside without leaving a trace. She could only see the boy's thin back. He lowered his head and never turned around to look at her. But the teacher had clearly called her name just now, and she had deliberately responded. Although the voice was not loud, it was impossible for the boy not to hear it at such a close distance. But he still stood straight, his tall and slender back motionless, without any sign of turning around, as silent as water. It turned out that he really didn't want to see her at all My heart suddenly ached, and a dense pain surged up. I felt so uncomfortable that I didn't even want to say a word. But think about it, she relied on her fake employer identity to bully him, hide things from him, and tease him, making things difficult and unreasonable every day, so it was reasonable for the boy to hate her so much. Don't blame him, everything is your own fault. Sniffing, feeling the heat coming from her eyes, Gui Yanxinmei quickened her pace and fled from here in a panic. She murmured this to herself, but only she knew the pain in her heart. ... Late at night, Gui Yanxinmei was awakened by a nightmare again He curled up on the bed, trembling slightly, like a helpless little animal licking its wounds. The nightmare of her childhood and the departure of her youth mixed together and swept over her. The double pain and hurt in her heart made it impossible for her to fall asleep again. It has been a long time since she had a good night's sleep. The loneliness and emptiness brought by the night are the most extreme, which makes her terrified and desperate. Her whole body seemed to be immersed in an icy pool, freezing cold and painful, without any warmth, only the dark loneliness swallowing her up.
It's not that she didn't think about throwing off the quilt and escaping from this terrifying room, but where else could she go? There were empty bedrooms next to her, and there was no sign of the boy staying inside. "Tada-kun..." The crying muttering echoed in the room. Gui Yanxinmei bit her lips lightly, helpless and haggard. You clearly said that you would come to me whenever I needed you. You clearly said that you would be there to comfort me whenever I was sad. You clearly said that if I had a nightmare I could come and hug you.