It seemed that her joke had stabbed Bu Yaolian in the heart.
She genuinely loved him, so her pain was deep.
On the other hand, Su Shenfan was such a playboy.
Gu Bailu didn’t know if it had been the right thing to do to summon Su Shenfan to save Bu Yaolian back then.
“I couldn’t sleep at first, so I searched for my 100,000 liang. Shao Zun definitely didn’t take it with him. When I searched the room, however, I discovered that he had an old token. It looks like a gift from a woman from long ago.”
Bu Yaolian took a sip of wine. “It’s definitely a gift from someone he cherishes, or he wouldn’t keep it with him all this time. I feel awful when I think about it. I wonder if he hasn’t touched women all these years for the sake of this person.”
Gu Bailu frowned and realized that things didn’t look good. If Su Shenfan really had someone in his heart, Bu Yaolian would suffer.
It didn’t matter how much weight this person had in Su Shenfan’s heart; that there was such a person at all was already a disaster.
Childhood sweethearts were truly annoying.
“Think about it. Shao Zun doesn’t have some unmentionable disease. It’s not like he can’t touch women. Why doesn’t he touch women? That’s the only possibility.”
Gu Bailu nodded. “Your analysis is logical, but so what? You still took his virginity, which means that the woman isn’t as charming as you are.”
“That was an accident…”
“How can that be? If he really wanted to keep himself chaste for that person, an accident will only happen once; he wouldn’t have spent the nights after that with you. Aren’t you being silly, to be sad over a woman who might or might not exist?”
Bu Yaolian put down the wine pot. “Actually, it’s not because of her. I feel like I’m having a mental breakdown. I know I shouldn’t be thinking about this, but I can’t control myself.”
Gu Bailu chuckled. “Let me tell you an age-old truth: The one thing people cannot free themselves of is their feelings.”
“But I can’t do anything about it.” It was because she knew this that Bu Yaolian was in pain.
She wanted to be as open-minded as before.
Even if she was unable to fully scratch Su Shenfan’s itch and he went to another woman’s room, she could still live her own life and wait for him in high spirits.
Unlike now, when her heart was constantly afraid of losing him.
But how could she lose something which she actually never had to begin with?
“I think you have two options. One, take out your determination and see if you can win his heart. Two, get pregnant and leave.”
Bu Yaolian was even more depressed. “Both methods are super difficult.”
When she didn’t know that he had a sweetheart who had given him an exquisite knot, she had been confident that she could give it a try.
Now, she really had no confidence.
She was also unwilling to leave after she got pregnant.
Shao Zun was so nice to her. How could she leave when he was so nice to her? He would hate her forever if she broke his heart.
“If you can’t do either, you’ll be like all the women in the harem, waiting for a man to come and love you every day, only to see him being loving and creating a family with someone else, before dying of old age in the lonely rear court.”
Bu Yaolian looked at Gu Bailu. “Lulu, if you were me and Prince Zi were Shao Zun, would you be able to do it?”
“Lian’er, everybody makes different choices. If it were me and Feng Qingtian were like Shao Zun, I wouldn’t like him at all. Even if I was slightly attracted to him, I would’ve backed away because of his frivolous nature. There are thousands of men in the world. Why would I choose someone who will give me a headache?”