She wanted to talk to Gu Bailu, but she didn’t want to disturb the pregnant woman.
She knew that her mental state had been deteriorating recently. Su Shenfan’s attitude toward her made her even more agitated.
She told herself repeatedly to stick to her original plan.
Frustrated, Bu Yaolian walked out of Qinghua Palace. Seeing a few people standing in front of Fu’an Palace, she hurried over.
Seeing that it was Gu Bailu, she smiled.
It seemed that she wasn’t the only one who couldn’t sleep.
“Lulu, why aren’t you asleep? You’re pregnant.”
Gu Bailu turned around and saw Bu Yaolian wandering around in the middle of the night without any guards. This girl really didn’t have any sense of security.
“Why are you wandering around in the middle of the night? There are plenty of hidden experts here. You might be eaten.” Gu Bailu walked over.
She wondered if Su Shenfan had left a few people to protect Bu Yaolian.
“I’m just walking around here. It’s fine if I don’t go far. Why can’t you sleep?”
“I hug my husband to sleep every day. He’s like a big heater and a pillow. I’m really not used to doing without; no matter how I toss and turn, I can’t get comfortable.”
Gu Bailu was heavy and tended to sleep lightly. After dinner, she took a nap, and couldn’t fall asleep again once she woke up.
She was used to sleeping with Feng Qingtian, and felt safe in his arms.
Few people in the imperial palace had good intentions. Once Feng Qingtian was gone, she lost her sense of security.
“Habits are really scary. I can’t sleep either. I miss Shao Zun.”
“Tsk, you’re already so reluctant to be parted from him after such a short time. What’s going to happen to you when he goes to another beauty?” Gu Bailu teased her.
Bu Yaolian was completely stunned. Tears welled up in her eyes. “I don’t know what I’ll do. I hate myself. I didn’t think so before, but now I want to monopolize Shao Zun.”
Gu Bailu’s heart jumped. She patted her back and said, “Silly girl, what’s there to cry about? Isn’t it normal to want to monopolize him? Which woman would want her man to go to another woman?”
“But that wasn’t what I thought before. My wish was simple before: It was fine as long as I could be by his side. My wish was fulfilled, but my heart is becoming more selfish.”
“You used to purely appreciate and like him. Now that you’ve spent so much time with him, your feelings have changed into true love. Naturally, your attitude has changed. Love is selfish. You love him and want him to love only you and not look at other women.”
“Is that so? So I’m not being too greedy?”
“What’s wrong with being greedy a little when you love someone? You didn’t do anything outrageous. It’s just that Su Shenfan isn’t necessarily someone you can be greedy over… That’s why you’re so worried and upset.”
Bu Yaolian sighed. “You can’t sleep anyway. Drink with me. I’ll have wine, you’ll have tea.”
Gu Bailu wondered what was wrong with the girl. She had been fine in the afternoon.
“Fine. Since I can’t sleep, I’ll drink with you.”
Bu Yaolian instructed someone to serve wine in the red plum grove of the imperial garden nearby.
Bu Yaolian downed the wine. She was using a cup at first, but later, she simply picked up the pot.
“What’s wrong with you?” A girl who was usually strong and open-minded was crying today because of a joke.