Chapter 81 Haruno Mine Shiori bit her lip and moved to the closet with a very grim expression. Then, while Sawayama Haruno looked confused, she took out a very thin coat from the closet and put it on. "Shiori, is it cold?" Zeshan Haruno asked tentatively: "Then do you want to turn up the temperature of the air conditioner?" He wondered what was wrong with this girl today. She seemed to be acting strangely compared to her previous appearance. Is it really because of the illness? “It’s okay” Mine Shiori stammered, "That's all. I can just put on a coat and it will be fine." "is it?" Sawayama Haruno was a little confused, but didn't think too much about it. Instead, he picked up the grapes on the table and started eating them. "This grape is quite delicious." He praised casually. "Indeed. I heard from Suguha that it seemed to be imported from abroad that morning." Mine Shiori carefully sat down in the seat opposite him, not daring to look up, and said, "If Haruno likes it, eat more."
"You should eat too." Sawayama Haruno threw another grape into his mouth and said with a smile: "I am the one who came to visit the patient, why is Shiori acting more polite than me?" "without" Mine Shiori was so embarrassed that she almost exploded and didn't dare to speak loudly. "Spring, Haruno." Mine Shiori opened her mouth and said quickly, "I forgot to ask you yesterday, what type of book do you write?" "what?" Hearing this, Zeshan Haruno, who was eating grapes, was stunned. What type? To him, isn't that pure immoral literature or substitute literature? Of course, in the eyes of the Japanese, this type of literature certainly cannot be so unbearable, but Sawayama Haruno did not think of explaining too much. "It's probably a love story, and it's also about self-salvation or something." Sawayama Haruno paused, then smiled helplessly and explained, "Perhaps everyone who writes traditional literature has a common problem of wanting to sublimate, so they would say they want to write about self-salvation or something like that." "Self-salvation?" Mine Shiori looked at him in a daze. After a while, she lowered her head and said, "So that's how it is. I think self-salvation is also good. At least it's more interesting than a simple romance novel." "A pure romance novel, wouldn't it all become a light novel?" Sawayama Haruno smiled. He picked up another grape, but this time he didn't eat it in a hurry. Instead, he pinched it with two fingers and said casually, "What does Shiori think about this kind of thing. That is, the kind of thing called self-salvation?" "Think about it, in the island country's physical literature market, it seems that this kind of spiritual books are very popular no matter what period. And in foreign countries, self-salvation and growth are also things that are mentioned in almost every book." Sawayama Haruno said with another meaning.
He deliberately brought the topic up this way. Because I want to know what Mine Shiori really thinks. This petite girl with sleepy eyes is still trapped in the Golden Week incident and cannot get out of it. With an extremely paranoid idea, he felt that all the subsequent tragedies were caused by his change of mind. Sawayama Haruno wanted to understand the other person's views on self-salvation before finding a way to resolve his knot. "What do you think?" Mine Shiori's eyes kept wandering around the floor, as if she was looking for something. After realizing that nothing would be pretended to be found by her, her tone suddenly returned to its previous calm state. She said slowly, "Compared to self-salvation, I'm probably more inclined to self-punishment, right?" "Because... is it true that someone does something wrong and doesn't have to pay the price?" "." You didn't do anything wrong, Sawayama Haruno thought. Shiori herself knew very well that laughing or not laughing was not her problem, so it was not the other person's fault at all. She must be made to realize this. "Self-punishment?" Sawayama Haruno hesitated for a moment and said, "I don't quite understand what this self-punishment is, but since it is a punishment, it will definitely leave wounds, whether mentally or physically." Hearing what he said, Mine Shiori's delicate body trembled slightly. was hit "yes." Mine Shiori lowered her head and said sullenly. No. Actually, it was because of what he said. Mine Shiori herself understood that relying on that kind of "punishment" to complete herself would not solve any problems at all. The right thing to do is to make peace with the past. If he wanted to make up for the regrets left over from the Golden Week, he should take the initiative to get closer to Haruno now. But she did nothing but use the clamps and flashlight to punish herself and escape everything. I indulged myself in that pleasure again and again, not thinking about anything else, and just relied on this decadent feeling to keep my mind blank. It's completely an escape. "very good!" Sawayama Haruno, who was sitting opposite, suddenly clapped his hands and said, "I'll give you a spoiler here." "Spoiler. What?" "Spoiler a line from my book." Sawayama Haruno raised his finger, blocking himself and Mine Shiori, and said with a faint smile: "Although it may sound very immature to say this, it doesn't matter. Just regard it as a gift for visiting the patient today." “——Death is not the opposite of life, but exists forever as a part of life.” “Instead of punishing yourself and leaving an uncomfortable wound, it is better to try to laugh.”
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