275 A Personal Talk —–
I ate a lot of meatloaf and pizza to forget those weirds feelings I just got recently. I had never really considered anything romantic until I said something about my own children, but having children really meant having someone to love and do… do… lewd stuff.
After all, kids don’t pop out of nowhere, right? They come after… a night of passion. Yeah, let’s leave it at that. And when I thought about, I realized that… I should just pick whatever I wanted, right? I had indeed found girls cute in my previous life, even my teacher… I guess I had a crush on her I think. She was so cool and beautiful now that I remember her… Even though her body was covered in scars and she was always cold-hearted, she had a beautiful body nonetheless and a radiant red hair, just like mine now.
Huh, I hope she’s doing alright, I ended loving her more like a second mother than anything, although I really did feel like I had a crush on her now that I remember my feelings. But now that I am in a new life, with a restarted life, I don’t really know what to think… All those people I once felt feelings for, those people I loved, they’re all gone from my life.
I am in a completely different world and… I don’t know if I will ever be able to go back to that world now. I am stuck here. Not… like I dislike the idea though, I love everyone I’ve met… Well, except those that tried to harm us. But my life, despite the hardships there were along the way, and the big challenge I once faced against that one Demon Lord, it has been very enjoyable
I think this second chance, even if it was a mistake, has been really enjoyable, and I truly happy that the god committed that mistake… And seeing how I am in a new world, the question about love had finally resurfaced in my mind after over 7 years of living here.
Through my entire young life I had left love as something I shouldn’t think about nor really try to experience, I was a toddler after all, babies shouldn’t go around romancing things, right? But now, although I am still called a baby girl sometimes… I am growing up. In a bit more time, I’ll reach 8 years of age, and then 9, 10… I will be a teenager before I realize.
Maybe I shouldn’t really think about it even now, there are many people that never trouble themselves with stupid romance stuff, but… I am really trying to not think about it, however, now that I got Aquarina inside of my mind, it feels like she doesn’t even want to leave it!
Well, I have always found her adorable and cute, but there is now something different. I remember she made me skip a beat some time ago… And now I feel that same feeling when I did when I look at her smile and enjoy her food. Maybe I shouldn’t overthink it, my mind is that of an adult, even if a young adult, it is wrong to romanticize a kid… I will just suppress these emotions. Even if I am a kid myself now, my mind is not, and there is still a sense of morality I will never cross.
…..
Aquarina is my lovely little sister and friend, and nothing more than that!
…Ugh, it is indeed hard.
But it’s nothing lewd, actually, it is just like the feeling of… “I wish I could spend the rest of my life with her” kind of thing.
Uwah, I can’t believe I said something similar to her, in fact, I promised it…
Ugh, so embarrassing… I had once worried about liking someone of the same sex before, even in my previous world, there was indeed some hate and discrimination against those people, I remember there was a couple of guys that were in a romantic relationship in my village, the people there didn’t looked at them well, especially those that were religious, calling them “sinful freaks” and some went as far as calling them “demons”.
I don’t even know what had happened to them after the bandit raid, but I hope… they are okay, wherever they are.
But in this world… aren’t I freer from society’s norms? And my parents look so lax as well, my father just told me that I could just adopt someone if I wanted… Maybe having strength also means having freedom to do as I please.
However, I should probably stop overthinking it.
“What’s wrong, Sylphy? You got gloomy, dear.” Said Arafunn, who was sitting near me. My mother was sitting at the side of Nepheline and Ninhursag this time around. “Is something troubling you?”
I had only met this man for a day but he’s already so close with me, it feels like I met an old uncle that I really felt familiar with. I wonder if he’s actually related to my mother somehow? Maybe not… not all elves are related, right?
“Uncle Arafunn… I… No, never mind.” I said.
“Hm…” Arafunn suddenly hummed, as he suddenly spoke without saying a word. I felt as if his voice spoke into my mind… Is this telepathy?!
“Sylphy, tell me, it is something you don’t want others to know? Not even your parents or your friends?” He wondered.
“Ah… W-What is this?!” I asked.
“Oh, this is my Mind Song Spell, it allows me to sing in the minds of others, it also works as a telepathy~” He giggled. “Are you annoyed by it? I will stop if you say so.”
“Oh… I see. No, don’t… I… I was wondering something, Uncle Arafunn…” I sighed.
“Yes, tell me.” He said. “I have traveled far and wide across the world, I have accumulated unimaginable wisdom! I might have some answer to your questions.”
“Then… Is it okay for people of the same gender to love each other? I mean… Does this world’s people… accept it?” I wondered.
Arafunn fell in silence, as he looked at me with surprise, and then he smiled warmly.
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