In Su Yi's view, the so-called blood-sucking relatives mean that they give 2% of their love but ask for 100% of their love in return.
They not only absorb your wealth, but also absorb all the upward and beautiful qualities in you.
But it deprives you of your free will and instinct to fight, making you a trash can for them to vent their anger.
The transmitter of their pressure.
Their unfortunate revenge.
The bearers of their failed lives.
They suck up their children's emotions, autonomy, emotions and energy, making them feel collapsed and unable to escape.
Su Yi had experienced it, so he was in pain and helpless, so he chose to stay away.
After gaining an extra layer of identity as a father, he has been avoiding becoming the same person as his mother.
He thought that because he had experienced it and knew the pain of being alone in darkness and unable to see the light, he would be able to be a good father.
But when the familiar words came out of his mouth, he looked at the pale and helpless faces of his children.
Su Yi discovered that, unknowingly, he had become the person he hated the most.
He ran away from home in panic, thinking that he would be able to escape the pain just like he had escaped from his mother.
But he didn't expect that as the night wind blew by, his ferocious face would flash through his mind repeatedly.
He felt that he was a coward because he chose death between defeating himself and escaping.
The moment he fell into the river, he had no regrets, only relief.
The staff of the Reincarnation Department appeared in front of Su Yi. After Su Yi filled out the form and took it back, he still didn't want to reincarnate.
He looked up at the depressed middle-aged man and said, "When you chose to die, your wife and children made countless phone calls to you. They were all waiting for you."
Su Yi moved his fingers and immediately realized that this was the underworld and there was no smoke.
He nodded and answered the staff, "I know they love me, but I can't love others. My living is the greatest harm to them."
Genes are powerful. Ever since he realized that he actually asked a pair of children under the age of six to repay his love, he felt that he would either become a cold and heartless person like his father, or become like his mother who always draws from the people closest to him. Emotional value people.
He was afraid and did not want to face the frightened and disappointed eyes of his children.
I also don’t want to see my wife’s cautious look.
They should live happily.
How could a man like him be worthy of being a husband and father?
He left a large inheritance, enough for his wife and children to live comfortably for a lifetime.
When his children were born, he prepared education funds for them.
Su Yi felt that he had arranged everything well. His wife was still young and his children were still young. They would have a new life instead of repeating his path.
Rarely, Su Yi thought of his mother at this time, a mother who had no job or education after divorce, and was struggling to survive alone with her son.
Su Yi felt sorry for his mother's hard work, but at the same time, his mother's invisible expectations, daily complaints, and gradually indifferent attitude made him feel pain and pressure.
He covered his face. He was not only a failed husband and father, but also a failed son.
He once again rejected the opportunity to reincarnate, and experiencing the painful life once was enough.
Although the Ghost Resentment Tower is lonely, it has become a shell for him to hide in. The staff had no choice but to leave with the reincarnation application form.
After Su Yi waited for him to leave, he saw the red soup hot pot on the table. He blanched a piece of cabbage and put it in his mouth. The stimulating feeling briefly awakened his brain.
He also thought about the time when his parents had not yet divorced when he was a child. He was sitting on his father's shoulder, looking at the bright starry sky, holding the fried dried fish in his mouth and reluctant to swallow it.
Later, he was no longer sitting on his father's shoulders, and my mother never made dried fish again.
The beautiful picture is finally fixed in the memory.
Su Yi blanched another piece of cabbage, tears falling on the table.
Time began to flow back at an unimaginable speed. Su Tang opened her eyes and found that she had arrived in a new life. In this life, she was a divorced mother living a difficult life with her young son.
Su Yi was playing with building blocks at the small table. When he saw his mother waking up, he immediately put his head over her.
"Mom, are you awake?" A pair of round, wet eyes looked at him, with her little face pressed against Su Tang's body, full of dependence.
"Mom, are you tired?" Su Yi asked gently.
He was only five years old, and he knew that because there was one person missing from the family, his mother had been sad, painful, and tired recently.
For as long as he can remember, he has lived in a small house with his mother and father. The house is small but full of things he likes.
His big dinosaur, his Ultraman Tiga, his toy stroller, and the flowers and plants raised by his mother.
But one day, an aunt came to the house. She held her father's hand, like the big rooster that grandma kept in the yard. She held her head high and watched her mother take him to move out of the former house.
Su Yi was still young and didn't know why his parents separated.
People around him said that his father didn't want him and his mother anymore. Su Yi didn't believe it. His father loved him and his mother, so how could he not want them? His father also said that he would take them to pick blueberries this year.
But then he never saw his father, and his mother kept crying. He learned from his mother that his parents were really divorced.
The word divorce appeared in Su Yi's life for the first time.
But he didn't dwell on the meaning of the word. He just knew that he was the only one left with his mother.
Mom hugged him and said, "Lele, mom only has you. You have to be good and obedient."
At that time, Su Yi nodded ignorantly. He would be good and obedient because he wanted his mother to stop crying.
Occasionally, he misses his father, but then thinks of his father abandoning him and his mother. Su Yi silently tells himself that only his mother wants him, and he only has his mother.
After a good sleep, she didn't feel awake. Her mind was still confused and her eyes were sore that she couldn't open them. She squinted at her well-behaved son, nodded and said, "I'm not tired anymore."
Su Tang woke up when he heard a soft sound in Lele's stomach. Seeing the little child covering his stomach and twisting his thin eyebrows into a caterpillar shape, Su Tang couldn't help but chuckle.
Lele felt a little shy when he heard his mother's smile, and twisted his body in embarrassment. He knew that his mother was still tired, because her eyes were red and swollen, and she could not open them.
So he touched his round belly and discussed: "Be good, don't be naughty. I'll put some white rice in later."
"Lele, do you want to eat white rice?" Su Tang sat up straight. There was no kitchen in a small house.
She had just divorced and had no savings. She lived in a shared house with her son. The monthly payment of 500 yuan included water and electricity expenses, which was good for her.
The bank card balance is [-], and Lele is about to start school. The tuition for one semester of kindergarten is [-]. She has not found a job yet, and she can't wait to break one cent into two and spend it.
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