Chapter 312 The sensitive palace concubine’s weak mother (5) Hearing what her daughter said, Su Tang remembered that she was planning to write a letter to Mr. Xie recently to bring her two children back. Because Jiang Qingyi said that it was irresponsible for her to leave her two young children outside, even though the two children could only come back once a month. Su Tang shook his head: "I thought about it carefully, since Jing'an and Jingyang are willing to study with Mr. Xie, there is no need for me to be stubborn about their wishes and have to keep them by my side. Even if you have to study with Mr. Xie after you reach the age of ten, what's the big deal? If you can't bear this little pain, there is no need to inherit the Duke's mansion. Qinglan, the glory that the ancestors of Duke Dingguo fought for with their blood cannot be destroyed in the hands of his descendants. Instead of staying with me in confusion, it is better to venture outside more often. If you also want to go out for a walk, mother will arrange everything for you. " Jiang Qinglan listened to this and shook her head: "No, mother, I don't want to go out, but I want to enter the palace. Will mother help me?" Jiang Qinglan thought that she would only mention it this time. If her mother didn't want to, she would never say it again. "I want to enter the palace and become someone like my aunt."
But after hearing what the eldest sister said today, she suddenly felt that she had another chance. Since the eldest sister didn't want to be the third prince's concubine, could she? Although Jiang Qinglan was surprised why her mother, who had always been weak and unassertive, would say such things, she still said firmly: "Mom, I have thought about it. No matter how difficult it is, I want to give it a try." "Every time I go to the palace and kneel down to worship my aunt, I am thinking that if I just marry an ordinary family, then I will kneel to more people in the future, and my children may also suffer a lot of grievances." Jiang Qinglan said, thinking of When he was young, the emperor accompanied his aunt home to visit relatives. His grandmother, who was already over sixty years old, knelt on the ground tremblingly and said that the etiquette should not be abolished. Because my aunt liked my mother, after my aunt became the queen, my grandmother never felt sorry for her mother, and the eldest sister never mentioned her biological mother's death again. "Not everyone can be your aunt. She has been able to reach this point and suffered a lot. Although she is now a queen and has the love and respect of the Lord of the World, she still walks on thin ice in the palace and is trembling with fear. A side concubine can also be used, as the second sister said, a prince's side concubine is much more noble than an ordinary wife. Why do you think she wanted Jiang's daughter to enter the prince's palace? She just wanted to get a guarantee. " That was the first time she realized how powerful her status and power were. Unexpectedly, my mother just pondered for a moment and asked in a rough and hoarse voice: "Qinglan, have you made your decision?" "Yes, mother, I have thought about it." Jiang Qinglan said firmly. Jiang Qinglan wanted to enter the palace, she wanted to be a master, but she knew that she was not as good as her eldest sister in every way, so she felt very uncomfortable. After Jiang Qinglan finished speaking, she felt uneasy. She didn't know why she suddenly said her true thoughts. She felt that her mother would definitely reprimand her and accuse her of wishful thinking. "When I was young, my eldest sister said that I had distracting thoughts and was not suitable for piano practice or painting, so the gentlemen only taught my eldest sister. Later, when I had the opportunity to enter Hanshan Academy, the eldest sister said that I was young and might not be able to bear the hardship, so the second and third sisters went to the academy. I know that I am not as good as my eldest sister in appearance or talent, but I still want to give it a try and make my own decision. "Jiang Qinglan's favorite thing is not making incense, but playing the piano and painting, but her eldest sister told her that a woman's lack of talent is a virtue. She does not have to have outstanding talents, as long as she has outstanding virtues. So she persuaded her mother to arrange a female teacher for her. When the eldest sister was studying poetry and calligraphy, she was doing embroidery. When the eldest sister became famous with her Xiaoxiang music, she was learning to make incense. Boring embroidery and incense making, as well as boring female virtue books, made it impossible for her to make like-minded friends even when she went out. Jiang Qinglan has had enough of this kind of life. She doesn't want others to just mention her and say, ah, that's Jiang Qingyi's sister.
She didn't want anyone else to talk to her, and all she asked were her three sisters who were outstanding in learning. She can obviously manage the house, settle accounts, and is proficient in embroidery and incense, but everyone can't see her. Is she really unworthy? Jiang Qinglan was unwilling to give in. She was obviously the daughter of Duke Dingguo. Why did her parents find a poor family for her when her sisters could marry into noble families? Is it really just because of the eldest sister's words that she hopes she can have a truly happy marriage, just be normal? Since the eldest sister thinks that being ordinary is fine, why doesn’t the eldest sister herself feel the same way? Since the eldest sister felt wronged by being the princess, why didn't she make it clear to her aunt? Jiang Qinglan didn't understand, and she wouldn't ask, because she knew that as long as she asked, her mother would look at her with disappointed eyes and ask sadly: "Why did you say such a thing? Don't you know that Qingyi did it for How much did you sacrifice? She sacrificed her love and happiness, just wanting you to live a safe life, but you don't understand at all, nor how precious ordinary happiness is. " Jiang Qinglan really didn't understand, but she thought that if she had suffered enough from the glory, wealth and power, she would understand. "My mother ignored you in the past, but you still became such an excellent daughter. My daughter is so kind, and my mother is very pleased. Mother knows that you must have seen that your eldest sister did not want to enter the palace, so you wanted to help her. "Su Tang looked at his daughter with a pleased look. But Jiang Qinglan felt weird, no, she just wanted to enter the palace, not because she felt sorry for her eldest sister. But seeing her mother's expression of "You don't have to say, I understand," Jiang Qinglan fell silent. "Now that you have made a decision, it is not easy for mother to stop you. Mother will help you, just like she helps your eldest sister." As expected, Jiang Qinglan was a little disappointed because her mother only cared about her eldest sister. But if she becomes someone like her aunt, or is as favored as Madame Butterfly in the previous dynasty, she will definitely be in her mother's eyes. Just as Jiang Qinglan was thinking about it, she heard her mother tell her to sit over. After she sat down, she was held in her arms by her mother. Mother's embrace is warm and soft, different from grandma's embrace. "Mother's Qinglan, why are you so sensible at such a young age? Mother feels extremely guilty. Since you want to make incense, I will leave the incense recipe sent by your uncle to you. When your father was stationed at the border in the early years, he also got some good things. When he returned, your mother had people send them to you. The happy life of a girl's family only lasts a few years. My mother expects you to be sensible, but she doesn't want you to be so sensible. Just live these few years as you like. " Jiang Qinglan was surprised, "Didn't the eldest sister find that fragrant recipe and give it to the imperial concubine?"