Chapter 530. Love is love
「 Yukino-oneechan, let me touch your stomach 」
Mana’s the first one to speak.
She gets off me and goes to Yukino.
「 Maika? 」
Yukino looks up at her sister in surprise.
「 Never mind that, let me touch your belly! 」
Mana’s still naked.
There’s still love nectar and semen, traces of sex with me from earlier in her crotch.
Yukino’s naked with just her underwear clinging on her leg.
Her crotch is also wet with love nectar from masturbating.
Mana’s hand touches Yukino’s lower abdomen.
There’s a green tattoo with “嘉甲” written on her shaved crotch.
「 How long has it been since the last time I touched Onee-chan’s stomach? 」
Mana smiles to Yukino intimately.
「 Onii-chan’s child is in here 」
Yukino never drank contraceptives.
「 We don’t know yet 」
Yukino mutters.
「 I’m envious of you. Onee-chan 」
Mana smiles at Yukino.
Yukino’s surprised.
「 Should I stop drinking contraceptives too? When that happens, I’ll give birth to a child together with Onee-chan, right? 」
Yukino shivers from what her sister says.
「 You see, I can just declare it as twins. I’ll give them milk, and I’ll even pick them up on the kindergarten 」
「 Maika, what are you talking about?! 」
Mana.
「 Let’s just think realistically, Onii-chan’s child is already in here, assuming that there’s a new life inhabiting here and will be born next year, then you have to think of the future now 」
That’s right.
Don’t think of what’s done.
Think of the future with that assumption in mind.
「 Even if you regret the past, grudge against it, cry, it won’t change the reality. Onee-chan and we need to prepare ourselves 」
Mana speaks to her sister with an earnest face.
「 I didn’t get it at all back then 」
I.
「 I always speak flowers, protecting the family, doing this for everyone’s sake, becoming Mao-chan and Agnes’ father, I talked all of it without thinking much, but… 」
Becoming a father was the only thing that I didn’t understand in my head.
I didn’t prepare for it.
Having to imagine my child inside Yukino’s stomach, I feel shocked.
「 Making a life is such an important thing 」
Yukino.
Inside that thin waist of Yukino is my child living.
「 When I first raped Yukino, back then, I was so desperate that I didn’t think of the future. I thought that I could die as long as I made Yukino mine. I didn’t know that I’ll still be alive by next year 」
On the day of my entrance ceremony, my father disappeared, and all that’s left was the passbook with some savings.
I can’t think of how can I live from then on.
I couldn’t see the future.
「 Though I’m told to make Yukino pregnant, I didn’t feel that I’ll still be alive next year and raise the child born. All I had was this dark feeling of wanting to have proof that I’m alive, by pouring my sperm inside Yukino 」
I didn’t consider the child at all.
「 Minaho-neesan said that she’ll raise Yukino’s child. Thus, I didn’t think much about if that was the case. No, I decided not to think about it 」
I intentionally avoided thinking of it.
「 Nagisa said that she’ll bear my child, but she’s really a mother, so I thought that she could raise the child well. She’d advice me on what should I do in any case 」
Nagisa’s older than me, and she’s reliable.
Therefore, I imagined raising a child with Nagisa.
「 The other women are drinking pills, so I think they’ll bear children years later 」
Therefore, even if they say “I want to get pregnant,” is just a desire, they’re not looking at the reality in front of their eyes.
This is a heavy reality.
「 I didn’t forget the possibility of Yukino getting pregnant, but I was desperately erasing it from my head, after all…」
I.
「 I know that I can’t live together with Yukino anymore 」
Yukino isn’t family.
Yukino’s pride won’t allow it.
The other women hold deep hate for Yukino.
「 I thought that I had to part with Yukino 」
I didn’t imagine living with Yukino in the future.
Yukino’s looking at me.
「 But, I don’t want Yukino to die no matter what. I want you to live even if we can’t meet each other again. That’s true 」
Even now, I want Yukino to live.
Even if it’s in a world out of my reach.
Even if we never meet each other again.
I want Yukino to live.
「 Is that because I’m similar to your mother? 」
Yukino asks me.
「 You can’t reconcile with your mother, so instead, you want to be open with me? 」
That’s.
「 I don’t think that’s the case 」
I look straight at Yukino.
「 Sure, Minaho-neesan might be right. I might be attracted to Yukino because you resemble my mother. But, Yukino is Yukino. I discovered a lot about you in the past ten days. Inside me now, I’m looking at Yukino. Not Mother, I’m looking at Yukino 」
「 Hmmm, what you know about me is that I’m a selfish, egoistic, and helpless idiotic woman, right? 」
I
「 No, that’s not all 」
The feelings I can’t speak up are rising.
My feelings for Yukino inside of me.
「 That’s never all 」
Yukino.
「 You liar. You’re looking down on me. You think of me like an idiot! 」
Tears gather in Yukino’s eyes again.
Yukino looks at her abdomen Mana’s touching.
「 I’ll abort the child 」
Yukino.
「 I’d rather die than bear your child 」
Tears fall from her eyes.
「 I don’t want this. I’ll never accept this 」
Then.
「 That’s a lie. Onee-chan will give birth! 」
Mnaa smiles at Yukino.
「 After all, it’s Yukino-oneechan’s baby! 」
「 Maika?! 」
Yukino’s surprised.
「 Yukino-oneechan will never kill her child! 」
「 I-I will 」
「 No, Onee-chan’s that kind of person. I know! 」
Mana.
「 When I was in medical treatment in Shizuoka, my family in Tokyo never came to visit me once, but 」
「 That’s right, I didn’t go to see you! 」
「 But, Yukino-oneechan didn’t forget about me! 」
The sisters stared at each other.
「 Onee-chan, when you went abroad with our parents, you bought me a souvenir. You sent me emails with photos taken from Hawaii. In addition to that, during the New Years or my birthday, you always give me a gift and a call! 」
「 That’s because you’re my little sister! 」
「 That’s right! Even now we’re still sisters1 Onee-chan still thinks of me as her little sister! 」
「 That’s, well, obviously? You’re my 」
Yukino and Maika are sisters.
「 That’s right. Yukino-oneechan is kind to what you think is yours. You treasure them 」
Mana presses Yukino.
「 Yukino-oneechan, you can’t get away from Onii-chan 」
Huh?
「 Yukino-oneechan thinks that Onii-chan is also hers after all! 」
「 D-Don’t be ridiculous! I! 」
「 So why are you here? Why did you escaped from Ichikawa-ojichan’s house and came back to this mansion? 」
「 That’s 」
「 Also, earlier this morning, when you saw Onii-chan, you got angry at him because he didn’t try to save Papa, right? If you don’t think of him as yours, then you won’t be saying that! 」
「 That’s not true! 」
「 Then, can you tell Kyouko-san and Cordelia-san what you said earlier? 」
「 I can’t say that of course!!! 」
Yukino shouts.
「 If I did that to them then they’d snap my neck. They’re just demons 」
「 Even though Onii-chan’s also allied with those people? 」
「 But, this man is?… 」
「 Yukino-oneechan knows that Onii-chan will never hurt her no matter how horrible you speak to Onii-chan, right? 」
Yukino doesn’t recognize me as an enemy.
That’s why she complains of me hatefully.
She thinks of me as someone she’s allowed to complain to.
「 It feels frustrating, doesn’t it? Onii-chan and Megu-oneechan are taken away by the ladies of Kouzuki house? 」
「 That’s not true! I don’t need that man! 」
「 You speak at the stage of “not needing,” don’t you already think of him as yours? Onee-chan’s really a troublesome woman 」
Mana laughs
Yukino.
「 Because this man raped me! That’s why he should be devoting his whole life to me! I’ll never forgive him even for a thousand years! 」
She points at me.
「 Hm. So Onee-chan’s love is like that 」
Love?
「 M-Maika?! What are you talking about?! This is never love! I’ll never accept this as love! 」
「 It’s love even if Onee-chan doesn’t accept it. You’re obsessed with Onii-chan 」
Mana said.
「 You want Onii-chan so much that you can’t hold yourself back, right? Onii-chan doesn’t turn towards you so you can’t help but feel hateful, right? 」
「 That’s! Becuase, this man, should be looking at me all the time, 24 hours a day! That’s all he should be doing! 」
「 That’s what you want, right? Look, that’s love! 」
Yukino mumbles.
「 But, Yukino-oneechan, in reality: Sorry but it doesn’t always go as Onee-chan wants. Onii-chan has become the pillar of our family already. Yukino-oneechan can’t have him all for herself 」
「 I know that already! 」
Yukino looks down.
「 I don’t think of anything of this man! 」
「 Then, what would you do with the child in your stomach, Onee-chan? 」
Mana says while rubbing Yukino’s belly
「 What will Onee-chan do to this child 」
Yukino puts her hand on her belly.
「 I don’t know 」
I.
「 Yukino, no, Shirasaka-san 」
I talk to Yukino the same way before everything started.
「 I know that Shirasaka-san’s a kind person 」
Yukino looks at me.
「 When I was dispirited because my father was gone on the day of entrance ceremony, Shirasaka-san was the one who called up to me in the classroom 」
「 I said this before, but that was your misunderstanding. I’m not kind of woman. You were just an eyesore, so I wanted you to go to the infirmary quickly 」
「 No, Shirasaka-san back then was kind. I remember it, I won’t forget! 」
「 Is that so? 」
Yukino looks away from me then looks at her lower abdomen once again.
「 Yukino-oneechan, this child may be Onii-chan’s child but also, this is Onee-chan’s baby too 」
Mana said.
「 Onee-chan, would you kill this child? This is Onee-chan’s precious child 」
Yukino.
「 Well, Maika’s right 」
She pats her belly once again.
「 I’ll give birth. Maybe 」
Then, she looks at Mana.
「 But, that’s because Yuzuki said that she’ll spare me if I bear the child! I don’t want to die so I’ll carry this child! I don’t actually want to you hear! 」
If there’s already a life inside Yukino’s belly, then…
She will be spared with no hesitation.
「 Yeah, bear the child. I’ll raise it, make it happy no matter what 」
「 Mana will help too! Should Mana bear a baby together with Onee-chan? 」
Yukino hugs her sister.
「 You don’t need to do that. Give birth when you want to. I alone am enough to bear this burden 」
「 Onee-chan!!! 」
The sisters hug each other.
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「 Onii-chan! Let’s all have sex together! 」
Mana calls me.
「 Maika, you?! 」
「 It’s okay, isn’t it?! I want to do it together with Yukino-oneechan! 」
Yukino looks at me.
「 But, he’s no longer getting erect for me. He said I no longer have charm as a woman! 」
「 That’s not it, Onii-chan is… 」
Mana smiles at me.
「 Onii-chan really loves Yukino-oneechan. Therefore, his penis stops getting erect for you 」
「 What the hell? 」
Err.
「 You don’t think of me as anything but a tool for sex, so that’s why 」
I speak honestly.
「 You only saw me as a tool to make yourself feel good 」
Yukino.
「 That’s not exactly right. Having sex with you feels good, but you’re not all about it 」
She looks at me coldly.
「 You’re a man with no saving grace you know? I don’t need your face or brain, just your penis is enough 」
To Yukino, I’m all that.
「 Either way, you’ll have sex with anyone. You don’t discriminate. You’re okay with any woman, right? You’re a beast! 」
Yukino said, Mana.
「 Huh, you didn’t know Onee-chan? 」
She smiles.
「 Onii-chan never have sex with anyone but girls he genuinely likes, only girls he wants to go out with for his lifetime 」
「 Wha?! What are you talking about, that’s a lie! 」
「 It’s true. After all, everyone trusts Onii-chan and wants to be with him 」
Mana laughs.
「 Don’t you think it’s strange? Everyone’s Onii-chan’s woman and yet nobody’s fighting out of jealousy, right? Instead, everyone’s working hard to become friends. Even though I’m Papa’s daughter, the other Onee-san are very kind to me 」
Yukino listens to what her little sister says.
「 Everyone wants to be with Onii-chan forever. They know that they have to get along so they can stay with Onii-chan. Onii-chan’s doing all his best to make us all happy. We don’t act like babies, and we have to cooperate 」
Mana.
「 That’s why Yukino-oneechan is the only one who wants to monopolize Onii-chan and gets seriously jealous of other girls. Yukino-oneechan has that kind of attitude, so they all look at Yukino-oneechan as hostile 」
「 I-I’m not jealous for that guy! 」
「 You really don’t get it, as expected of Yukino-oneechan! 」
Mana said with a smile.
「 Then, Onii-chan also loves Yukino-oneechan so even when pushed to the very edge of the cliff, he never abandoned Onee-chan 」
No, wait.
「 Mana, Yukino is… 」
I.
「 I may have longed for Yukino but, I’ve done a lot of horrible things because I wanted to make her mine no matter how awful my acts can be 」
But.
「 But this isn’t love. It’s not okay to make word plays with me loving Yukino or Yukino loving me 」
I’m the villain who raped Yukino.
I have no qualification to say love to Yukino.
「 That’s not desires(ai) It’s not love either(Koi)1 It’s a much more shameful, dark lust. I raped Yukino with a guilty conscience. That will never be love 」
Mana smiles at me.
「 Onii-chan’s really pure! I love you! 」
Huh?
「 Onii-chan, love in this world isn’t just pure love. Onii-chan’s dark lust, you mentioned just now is also love. It’s just another form of love! 」
「 No, look 」
「 Well then Onii-chan, is it a sin to masturbate while thinking of the person you like? If you want to have sex with that person that’s no longer love? 」
….
「 In Onii-chan’s case, it’s true that raping Yukino-oneechan is a sin. That’s one big sin. But, your feelings for Yukino-oneechan is real love, isn’t it? Love! 」
Mana said.
「 Onii-chan, even though you were taking of us, you always worry about Yukino-oneechan. I know. You have always been thinking on how to make Yukino-oneechan happy, right? 」
I.
Mana turns to her sister.
「 Yukino-onee-chan doesn’t get it. Sex doesn’t feel good. Doing it with Onii-chan is what feels good 」
「 Maika?! 」
「 You see, I feel disgusted with other men that I can’t do it with them. Onii-chan embraces me to my heart when he does have sex with me. I can lay bare my mind and body to Onii-chan. I can feel Onii-chan’s gentle gaze on me, so I also embrace Onii-chan. I love Onii-chan’s face when he’s feeling good when he’s ejaculating inside me! I can say from the depths of my heart that I love him! 」
Mana smiles.
「 To us, Onii-chan is like that. Someone precious. We all can’t live without Onii-chan anymore. After all, Onii-chan’s the only one who sees through the real me. I can show the true me only to Onii-chan. It’s not just me, Megu-oneechan all the others are the same. Therefore, we can’t leave Onii-chan’s side! 」
Yukino.
「 It’s not that I… 」
She said, then swallowed her words.
「 Haa, okay I’m lying, I know that too 」
Yukino!?
「 When Kenji attacked me, he’s just violent, his eyes are glaring, wanting to rape me 」
This was back when Endou attacked her at the broadcasting room, next to the principal’s office.
「 I was only afraid, even though Kenji was my boyfriend 」
Yukino shows a painful expression.
「 In the middle of it, this man used a stun-gun on Kenji, and he raped me instead of Kenji. But, it felt good. This man does. He’s getting even better at sex. It gets on my head. He’s making me feel good while focusing on the most delicate details 」
Yukino, you.
「 Yes, I admit that this man’s good at sex. Perhaps, our body has excellent compatibility. I like him ravishing me. When I do it with my hand, I imagine him embracing me. But! 」
Yukino looks at me.
「 That’s all. I’ll only admit his skills at sex. I’ll never accept anything else. I hate his face. HIs personality. His stupidity. His voice. HIs figure too, they’re all different from my taste. There’s not a single factor that would make me like him! 」
I know that.
It’s impossible for Yukino to like me.
「 Hmm, so then, what did Yukino-oneechan like on her former boyfriend? 」
Mana asks.
「 Huh, Kenji? 」
「 Yes. What did you like about that person? 」
Yukino.
「 Err, his face, the fact that he’s a sports face, and then, his face too, I guess? 」
「 Was he smart/ 」
「 He was an idiot. That’s off the point 」
「 So, comparing him with Onii-chan? 」
「 Kenji’s far more stupid 」
「 His personality? 」
「 His confidence was like Papa’s so I liked it but, I knew that his confidence was coming from his overwhelming stupidity 」
「 Was he trustworthy? 」
「 No, he’s a scum beyond saving 」
「 So, is there any other point he has? 」
「 Err, I guess his face 」
Endou’s only a face?
「 Then, Onii-chan’s much better! 」
「 Kenji’s better in looks! 」
「 I wonder, I think that Onii-chan’s on the right track on the looks though 」
Mana said.
「 He looks very cool, and it makes my heart throb sometimes, I love that part of him 」
「 What about you Maika, you don’t know how he usually looks like at school 」
「 Yukino-oneechan, Onii-chan’s changing you know? I think he looks cool in school now too. That’s what I believe 」
Saying that; Mana smiles at me.
「 Onii-chan, you’re overthinking. Yukino-oneechan doesn’t think of Onii-chan just as a tool for sex. That pure affection is cute though 」
Wrong?
「 Yukino-oneechan’s already madly in love on having sex with Onii-chan. Once you make that clear that she’s fallen, then that’s okay 」
Yukino has fallen for sex?
「 If you stay pure, this stubborn Onee-chan won’t fall! 」
Mana, you.
「 Getting madly in love with sex and become unable to leave also love. That’s what I think 」
I don’t get it.
「 Anyway, let’s try having sex, I’m sure you’ll get it 」
「 But I 」
I didn’t get erect for Yukino last night.
「 Oh, Onii-chan are you worried? 」
Mana comes back to me.
「 It’s okay. I’ll make Onii-chan’s penis big! 」
She licks my penis.
「 Hey, can you compare Yukino-oneechan and me? 」
She sends me a bewitching look.
「 Megu-oneechan and Agnes-chan and I are sisters from different mother but, Yukino-oneechan, and I have the same mother, so we’re real sisters 」
Mana.
「 Isn’t that arousing? I’m already excited though 」
She licks on my glans.
「 Ufufu, it’s getting hard, Onii-chan’s aroused too 」
Mana smiles.
「 Yukino-oneechan, come here! This bed is wider than that 」
She calls Yukino.
「 Maika, you 」
Yukino’s still hesitating.
「 If Onee-chan’s not coming then I’ll make love with him alone again 」
This 14-year-old rubs her nipple on my glans.
「 Or could it be that Yukino-oneechan doesn’t want to do it with me? Embarrassed? 」
「 THat’s 」
「 I want to do it together with Yukino-oneechan though 」
Mana’s eyes move Yukino’s heart.
「 Geez! I have no choice do I! 」
Yukino gets up.
She has to take off only her panty and bra.
I see.
There’s only one among my women…
Yukino’s never cautious of her real little sister, Mana.
Yukino who doesn’t trust other people opens up her heart only to her sister who she feels is under her control.
Therefore, Minaho-neesan.
She approved of Mana’s approach.
「 Okay, Onee-chan has arrived! 」
Mana happily greets Yukino who came over to our bed.
「 Yukino-oneechan, go on Onii-chan’s right side, I’ll take the other side! 」
She decides the positions while smiling.
「 Then, let’s make love with Onii-chan, okay? 」
Mana speaks brightly to Yukino.
1. Fuck me for all these multiple meanings of Love in Jap