Chapter 93 Believe When Jin Shiming concentrates on his work, he is indeed more immersed in it and often ignores things around him. By the time he had finished revising and finalized the score of "If the Cherry Blossoms Fall", Jin Shaoqing had already sat back on the sofa, watching his childhood videos diligently with a notebook in his hand. "Oppa, you were a child prodigy when you were little! It's fine that you were good at singing and dancing, but I didn't expect that you could play instruments like piano, drums, and guitar so skillfully. You even won championships in national competitions many times!" Jin Shaoqing noticed Jin Shiming approaching and couldn't wait to express his inner feelings. Jin Shiming in the video was the brightest genius among the children. He won almost all the competitions he participated in with an overwhelming victory. Not to mention his peers, even teenagers who look much older than him are far less powerful than him. However, while marveling at the talent and gifts that Jin Shiming had displayed since childhood, Jin Shaoqing couldn't help but feel a little distressed and reluctant. In the large number of recorded clips, Jin Shiming was either practicing or competing, and he rarely had time to play or entertain himself. Jin Shiming has self-discipline and precocity that is not consistent with his actual age. He is so mature that he does not look like a child at all. From the perspective of others, Jin Shiming is undoubtedly a role model for other people's children, a little prodigy to be proud of, and a rising star of the future. However, Jin Shaoqing watched the video for so long, but rarely saw a smile from the heart on Jin Shiming's face.
Even though he won the competition, Jin Shiming looked relatively calm when he held up the trophy. Only when he was holding the certificate and trophy and asking for credit from his parents in front of the camera, his boastful and slightly arrogant expression revealed some of the childishness that a child should have. From this, it is not difficult to find that Jin Shiming really loves his parents and longs for praise and compliments from them. Perhaps, the reason why he was able to persevere was largely to respond to his parents' expectations and not want to disappoint them. But this once happy family is now broken up and can never be reunited again! "I did win a lot of championships when I was a kid, but the one that left the deepest impression on me was the Shanghai Children's Singing Contest when I was seven years old." Jin Shiming sat down next to Jin Shaoqing and said with nostalgia. "Oppa, did you win the championship?" Jin Shaoqing asked curiously. "I won the championship twice in the previous two competitions. The video you are watching now is the second time I defended the title. Only in the next competition, I performed poorly in the final and failed to win the third consecutive championship." Jin Shiming shook his head. "So, Oppa, you can also make mistakes?" Jin Shaoqing found it hard to imagine Jin Shiming making such a low-level mistake. "I am a human being, not a machine. How could I not make mistakes? A few days before the competition, my parents and I agreed that if I won three consecutive championships, they would take me to Disneyland in Hong Kong," Jin Shiming recalled. As he spoke, he took out his notebook and looked through the video footage from that time. "Look, this video still bothers me till now! I had a bad cold on the day of the competition, and my throat was in a bad condition. I made a few mistakes on the high notes, and missed the championship! When I got off the stage, I saw my parents holding a DV, ready to witness my three consecutive championships, and I couldn't help crying!" Jin Shiming said, pointing at the screen. After reading it, Jin Shaoqing smiled like an auntie. Before the game, he pestered his parents for rewards, and after losing, he cried unwillingly and no matter how his parents tried to comfort him, he wouldn't stop. Such a childish side, when put on Jin Shiming, gives people a sense of cuteness with a full sense of contrast, so adorable! In the picture, Jin Shiming cried for a long time, and then, perhaps because he was tired of crying or his cold got worse, he fell asleep on his mother's lap. "Honey, do you think we are too harsh on Shiming?" Jin Shiming's mother said softly to the camera, caressing Jin Shiming's face. "Yes, I haven't seen Shiming cry so sadly in a long time! He has always been very obedient and sensible, and rarely needs us to worry about him, so much so that I have forgotten that he is only seven years old now!" Jin Shiming's father's voice came from outside the screen. "Do you remember the last time Shiming lost his temper with us? He cried and said he wanted to play like other kids. I instantly felt like a failure as a mother! We just blindly thought 'for his own good' and imposed our hopes on him, but ignored his thoughts and feelings." "A child this old is just at the age of wanting to play. What's wrong with that? I've also figured it out. The child's future shouldn't be decided by us. Let him do whatever he wants!" "We should encourage Shiming to go out and make friends in the future. Otherwise, he will always be alone and feel lonely."
"This kid has inherited our good looks and talents. He will definitely be very popular with girls when he grows up. You're worried that he will be lonely. Maybe when he gets married in the future, he will forget about you as his mother!" "When children grow up, they have to leave their parents and start their own families. We can't be with them forever." "Shiming is only a few years old, and you're already thinking so far into the future?" "It was only after I became a mother that I finally understood the conflicting feelings of wanting him to grow up quickly so I could see him get married, have a career, and have children and grandchildren, but at the same time I also wished time would slow down so he would always be a child who never grows up." "Who says it's not the case..." Jin Shiming stared at the screen in a daze, looking distraught. Because he hated failure and felt ashamed, he never watched the video. Therefore, he did not know that his parents had such a conversation after he fell asleep. "Oppa..." Jin Shaoqing was also filled with sighs in his heart and couldn't help but hold Jin Shiming's hand. "Aqing, it's getting late, you should go back to your room and get some rest!" Jin Shiming gently pulled his hand away and patted the back of Jin Shaoqing's hand. "Then you..." Jin Shaoqing said worriedly. "Leave me alone, okay?" Jin Shiming whispered. "Well... okay then! Oppa, you... you should also go to bed early!" Jin Shaoqing bit his lip lightly and responded helplessly. She wanted to comfort Jin Shiming, but didn't know how. After all, this kind of thing cannot be easily solved with just a few words. Saying that it is understandable and attempting to enlighten people is simply nonsense. The only thing Jin Shaoqing can do now is to believe. I believe that Jin Shiming will be able to get out of his sadness as soon as possible after a brief period of depression. Then, greet him with a smile and welcome the new day. (End of this chapter)