Chapter 84 Don't Push Me Away Later, when everyone was discussing where to go for fun the next day, Kim Sejeong was obviously not interested and only spoke occasionally to be perfunctory. All she was thinking about now were Jin Shaoqing and Jin Shiming. It's not that Kim Sejeong is unable to accept this situation. After all, she had previously thought about bringing Kim So-jeong and Kim Se-myeong together and helping them get together. But she couldn't understand why Jin Shaoqing lied to her? There is also Jin Shiming. Although he did not lie, he deliberately concealed some important information and chose not to tell others. If Saito Asuka hadn't sent a message to Suzuki Taichi, she might still be kept in the dark by the two people she cherished so much! Rather than jealousy or envy, this feeling of being excluded and alienated made Kim Sejeong feel lost and hurt. …… After leaving the practice room in a daze and just about to return to the dormitory, Kim Sejeong ran into Kim Semyeong at the corner, whom she now didn't know how to face. "Sejeong, what's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell? Why do you look so listless?" Seeing that Kim Sejeong looked a little abnormal, Kim Semyeong immediately asked with concern. "I'm fine. I was just thinking about something and was a little absent-minded!" Kim Sejeong shook her head, trying hard to force a smile, and replied pretending to be full of energy.
Jin Shiming leaned down slightly, staring at Jin Shizheng's face. After a few seconds, he finally spoke: "I remember when you were little, you came home from school and ran to my room and cried for a long time. You felt so wronged." Kim Sejeong has been sensible since she was young. She is very understanding of her mother's difficulties and almost never sheds tears in front of her family. Only when she was with Jin Shiming, she would occasionally cry about the grievances she had suffered and vent her emotions to her heart's content. "After waiting for you to stop crying, I asked you what happened. You told me that you were scolded by your teacher at school. 'Shizheng, do you think this is funny? Do you think you did nothing wrong? Don't laugh!'" Jin Shiming continued. Hearing Jin Shiming mention some past events, Jin Shizheng couldn't help feeling a little melancholy. She didn't expect that Jin Shiming actually remembered these things clearly that she had almost forgotten. "You told me at the time, 'I clearly knew that I was wrong, and I was reflecting on it. I wanted to explain to the teacher that it was not what he said. However, I wanted to put away my smile, but the corners of my mouth were shaking and I couldn't put it away. Apart from smiling, I didn't know what expression to make next.'" As Jin Shiming spoke, he used the tips of his thumbs to gently smooth out the upturned corners of Jin Shizheng's mouth. "Although our Sejeong looks best when she smiles, but, at least in front of me, you don't have to force yourself!" Jin Shiming patted Jin Sejeong's head and said the same words he said back then. "Oppa!" Kim Sejeong instantly felt a surge of warmth overflowing from her eyes, and she couldn't help but throw herself into Kim Semyeong's arms. She is now certain that her Oppa Shiming has not changed, and is still the Oppa who cares about her, understands her, and loves her! …… Kim Se-myeong knows Kim Se-jeong better than he knows himself. With just one glance, he could tell whether Kim Sejeong's smile was genuine or forced. Moreover, Jin Shiming could more or less read something from Jin Shizheng's momentary change in expression, and guessed that her current troubles were most likely related to himself. So, Kim Se-myeong took Kim Se-jeong to his office and gave her some space to be alone together. As for whether Jin Shizheng will reveal her secrets, it is entirely up to her own will, and Jin Shiming will not force her. After all, everyone has secrets that they don't want to tell, let alone adolescent girls. If Jin Shizheng is willing to talk about any grievances or troubles, Jin Shiming will naturally help her solve them as long as he can. If Kim Sejeong doesn't want to speak, Kim Semyung will respect and understand her, and try his best to entertain her so that she can be a little happier. "Oppa, I have something to ask you!" Kim Sejeong held a cup of jasmine tea that Kim Semyung had just brewed for her. After she felt her emotions calmed down, she spoke.
Instead of keeping it in her heart and getting into internal conflicts, she simply took the opportunity provided by Jin Shiming and raised her questions directly. Just as Jin Shiming couldn't bear to see her forcing herself to smile, she also hoped that the two of them could be more transparent when they were together. Less beating around the bush and hiding things from each other, and more honesty and sincerity. "Just ask, I will answer everything I can." Seeing this, Jin Shiming nodded solemnly in response. "Oppa, are you going back to China tomorrow with Sojeong unnie?" Kim Sejeong asked directly. Although it was a question, there was a certainty in his tone. Jin Shiming finally understood why his sister looked so depressed. "Mr. Suzuki's situation is a bit complicated, and it's not very convenient for him to go to mainland China. I originally planned to go back alone, but I didn't expect that Mr. Suzuki privately asked Shaoqing for help and even handled the formalities for her." Jin Shiming told the truth. "Why can Shaoqing unnie do it but I can't? Does Suzuki-san think I'm not reliable enough?" Kim Sejeong asked. This is also what she cares about the most. Even if they are ranked according to the closeness of their relationship, she should be thought of first, and then Jin Shaoqing, right? As a result, no one discussed it with her or sought her opinion before she was unilaterally deprived of her qualifications. "Shizheng, to be honest, I'm struggling inside right now. I can't imagine whether I will let it go after returning home this time, or will I become even more obsessed with it. There's only one thing I'm sure of, and that's that I'm going to behave very awkwardly and be really, really embarrassed!" Jin Shiming said slowly with a bitter smile. "Because of this, shouldn't I stay with Oppa?" Kim Sejeong said with great heartache. "I want you to be with me, but I don't want you to see me at my worst. Even if it were Suzuki-san or Shaoqing, the intensity of my conflicting feelings would not be as strong as mine." Jin Shiming looked deeply at Jin Sejeong and said. It’s not that Kim Se-myeong thinks Kim Se-jeong is not reliable enough to accompany him through thick and thin. It's just that he cares about Kim Sejeong too much and doesn't want her to worry or be sad, that's all. "Oppa, can you please promise me one thing?" Jin Shizheng stretched out his little finger towards Jin Shiming, "When you really can't hold on any longer, don't push me away!" She can forgive Jin Shiming's "showing off" and understand his thoughtfulness and gentleness, but she still wants to be Jin Shiming's last and most solid support. Jin Shiming hesitated for a moment, but still stretched out his finger and made a pinky promise with Jin Shizheng. If it really came to that, maybe he would allow himself to be weak for once? (End of this chapter)
