Chapter 108 The IncompetentShang Liyu opened her eyes. There was still a sea of fire and lava around her, and An Ti picked up a fire next to her. "Sure enough, the Life Lock can even help expel things like this." Anti said casually. "That is..." Shang Liyu's eyes widened slightly and he looked at An Ti in surprise. Anti held the fire in his hand, "A major source of your misfortune. Without this, you would no longer be the fire, and you would no longer be the thing that burns everything you have reincarnated countless times." Shang Liyu stared at An Ti blankly. So... the thing that had troubled her for so long, and even made her almost collapse the moment her memory was restored, can be solved by just dying once? "That's good. Go back and have a good dream. Don't worry about terrible things anymore. Be an ordinary girl and live your life peacefully on Blue Star." Anti stood up. Shang Liyu was stunned for a moment, then asked, "What should we do about the illusion?" "I will find a way to deal with it. Of course, it doesn't matter if I can't do it. After all, I don't have the burden of saving people. As long as we can catch the Zoroastrian, he must be killed." Anti said casually. "What should I do? If I am no longer the spark... that person said he needs me as a carrier." After one death and the spark leaving his body, Shang Liyu's mind regained some stability.
The process of collapse was interrupted, and the refreshing of the life lock even included a certain amount of mental repair, even if it was limited. "There's no reason why they need you. They have made a lot of preparations for the plan. Even without you, they will definitely find the next suitable carrier." As he spoke, Antiran spit out the two balls of true spirit fire from his big mouth. "Maybe I can even try." [Event - "Yanfu"] [Gift from Salutiss: Even if you are just an ember, you can become a flame-attached being that attracts flames. The price is that as the ember, you need to burn a lot of substances to maintain your existence, especially life, spirit and other substances... Of course, it doesn't have to be your own.] 【Whether to accept? 】 Salutisas finally came out. Moreover, this trigger gift directly made him a flame possessor. Although from the description, it is definitely impossible to directly reach the level of Salutissus, it can only be regarded as a little ember of fire. As for the price, it is probably enough to understand it as a sacrifice. If he becomes the flame possessor, Anti feels that he will most likely become a carrier that these fire seeds prefer. When he absorbs the fire seeds and aggregates the real true spirit fire, he should be able to deal with the illusion outside. I just don't know what changes will happen to me after becoming a flame possessed person and then a carrier of true spirit fire. From what we have seen so far, the awakening of the fire spirits brought by Salutizas makes these fire spirits almost the same as Eevee in Pokémon. By adapting to different environments, they evolve into different forms and develop different attributes and abilities. If I add this unique variable into the birth of the True Spirit Fire, it is likely to change again. "You want to go?!" Shang Liyu suddenly lost his voice. Anti glanced sideways: "Yeah, although I'm probably not the type of person with an excessive sense of self-awareness, but considering the worst case scenario, I might be the only one here who can handle this smoothly." "No... No..." Shang Liyu sat on the ground and moved to Anti's side, reaching out to pull his trouser leg: "If you become a fire seed, you will also experience that kind of thing. This is not a question of whether your spirit is strong or not. The fire seed will burn your will... Just like you were burned in pain before, weren't you?" "It doesn't matter, let's try it first. Stay away from me, you don't have such a strong understanding of the miracle of fire now, don't get burned." Anti said as he was about to stay away from Shang Liyu.
He didn't think Shang Liyu was really fragile. Just like Karasuo, his will was worn out by the cycle of reincarnation that blurred time. Whether Shang Liyu was really weak or in a bad state of mind, she was indeed not led astray by her reincarnation self during her amnesia. She even still had the courage to try to find her lost memories in the Lihuo illusion. As just a college student, she has already endured a lot and there is no need to blame her too much. Anti likes kind people. Without these kind people, he will lose a lot of confidence in the world and society, and then make some unpleasant considerations and even actions at certain times. Shang Liyu helped him when he was unconscious. Although it was insignificant to An Ti, he was willing to take the girl with him to help find his memory. Even if the memory is not a good one. And now that Shang Liyu has regained her memory and made her own decision, Anti naturally supports her. After all, apart from Zoroastrianism and Anti, who were brought here by fate, he felt that everyone else had just suffered an unprovoked disaster. After leaving the fire, Shang Liyu had lost the necessary connection with the incident and finally got rid of these troubles. Although she might still be unhappy in the future because of those memories and often have nightmares, she still had a long life. This is what Antiochus thought simply and purely. But Shang Liyu doesn't think so. Her eyes were a little empty and her voice was a little low: "We can't do this..." "Hmm?" Anti turned to look at her. "You can't go, let me go." Shang Liyu stood up and said to An Ti. "...There's no need. Don't force yourself. You have no responsibility." Anti said after thinking for a while. "What about you, Anti? You don't have any responsibility to save this city that has nothing to do with you, and the people in the city... We are all just victims, why do you have to make such a painful choice?" "It's not that painful. I should be able to get used to it no matter how painful it is. Besides, I don't know what's happened to Nie Hong and Lin Jinghong. They came to Jincheng with me to play. I feel sorry to let them spend a not-so-pleasant May Day holiday." Anti said casually, looking very relaxed. But his expressionless face made Shang Liyu's already aching heart feel even more pierced by a knife. Everyone is a victim, but I am broken. Compared with Karasuo and Anti, I am a complete waste... She looked at the flames in front of Anti, and the scene in her vision gradually faded away. Shang Liyu seemed to be back on the ruins of the sea of fire where she had stood countless times, looking at the mess she had created. Yes, in my memory, no matter how many times I lost control, I was never able to face the "reality" that I had burned with my own hands in a fantasy world that was no different from real life. After reincarnation again and again, the red-haired self could only cry and hold his head in the ruins. I can't stop anything, I can't change anything, I can only cry and beg people to save me. Then when you are tired of crying, you walk towards the next cycle in a daze, and the cycle repeats itself over and over again. There is no complete burning of everything and revenge of all madness. He doesn't have the strength like Carasso to save others from suffering and to protect them. There is no such thing as Antioquia, who has a Madonna-like sense of responsibility even though it is completely unrelated.
After seeing so much, in the end, he could only hold his head and cry, asking Anti, who was so good to him, to kill him. However, when Anti decided to take the responsibility due to his own incompetence, he did nothing. I was persuaded to go back to being an ordinary person and regard all this as just an unpleasant dream. …… “What kind of coward is this?” The figure with charming red hair knelt on the ruins of the sea of fire and spoke slowly. She expressed her own thoughts. Why, in the illusion that was created in front of her by the influence of the True Spirit Fire, the red-haired phantom only had cold eyes when he looked at her. In the end, can incompetent people only hate their own incompetence? At this moment, in front of Shang Liyu, the red-haired figure slowly stood up amidst thousands of thoughts, turned his head, and looked at him. There was no expression, just calm and wooden, just like Shang Liyu now. They just stared at each other quietly for a long time. …… "I'll do it." Shang Liyu repeated it again in a trembling voice. Anti looked at her and didn't persuade her any further: "Okay." The brave should get the destination they deserve. (End of this chapter)