Chapter 121 Spring The days passed one by one, autumn turned into spring, and half a year passed in the blink of an have also been able to deal with the inevitable "formalism" well, and I no longer feel humiliated when I am dragged down to be a negative example. As the city’s population increases, my daily workload becomes heavier and the calluses on my hands become thicker. Chu Yucheng had also changed a lot. A boy of fifteen or sixteen was in the period of growth. He had grown a lot in half a year, and his original clothes had become much shorter. At the same time, our "little home" has also changed a lot. Just as we had imagined, we connected the electricity, added beams and tiles, built a small yard, planted some vegetables, and also... added a small bed. We no longer sleep in the same bed, but this home, bit by bit, bears the traces of what we built together. I often watched Chu Yucheng busying around in our little home, and in a trance, I even forgot that I was in a state of empathy, and had the illusion that we were supporting each other and living together. And as the time spent in empathy increases, such illusions occur more frequently. I had just finished a day's work, and after a quick wash, I lay down on the bed to rest. Although my body was tired, my mind kept wandering uncontrollably. The relationship between Chu Yucheng and I seems to have undergone some subtle changes because of living together these days... How can I describe this change?
Two people whose lives originally had no intersection met by chance and were trapped in a fantasy world and lived together. As time went by, it seemed that they would become close. Just like, I can already distinguish the footsteps at the door, it's him coming back—— The door creaked open at the right moment. Chu Yucheng opened the door and said excitedly: "Tomorrow, our factory will arrange for us to take the assessment and evaluation. If I can pass the assessment, I can join the Ping team!" In addition to working, Chu Yucheng's factory also arranges for employees to study, mainly to learn the operating principles of textile factory machines. If they learn well, they can join the Xiaoping fleet and become a technician who performs maintenance on large and small flatbed cars and regularly cleans the textile machinery equipment. The salary of a skilled worker is higher and the job is easier, so Chu Yucheng is very concerned about this exam. I said weakly, "Congratulations." Chu Yucheng didn't understand why I was like this: "Are you feeling unwell?" I paused and said, “I miss my parents and my friends.” Then there was a long silence. In fact, when empathy first started, we would talk about our real lives from time to time. In my previous empathy, once I tried to deal with things from a God’s perspective, I would immediately lose control of my body, but this time, this situation never occurred. So much so that in the beginning, I was always worried about when I would lose control of my body. But as time went by, I gradually let go of this anxiety. Not only did I stop mentioning things in real life, but Chu Yucheng also seemed to have forgotten about them and basically stopped mentioning them. Time seems to be a ruthless blade that can cut off most of the thoughts and ties. I sat up from the bed and asked him seriously, "If it weren't for me, you wouldn't have joined this club and participated in this event; if it weren't for me, you wouldn't be in such a dangerous situation now, and you don't know when you can get out. Do you regret it?" Chu Yucheng didn't answer immediately. I looked at the solemn expression on his face. I felt like I was falling into an ice cellar. I felt as if something in my heart was falling, falling... He was hesitating. He regretted it... I lowered my head. Yes, such a gifted child, now doing the hard labor of a porter every day, I don't know how long I will have to do it, and I don't know if there will be danger, and when the danger will come.
How could I not complain? For the past six months, we have been running around for food and clothing. Even though there is a short period of happiness, the insecurity that these things will be overturned at any time is always lingering. How can he not... "You are the one I chose." I heard Chu Yucheng say: "I don't know if I will regret it, but I know that if I hadn't met you, I wouldn't know the cause of my brother's death, and I wouldn't have a way to deal with Yin Zongyang." He took a long breath: "I would definitely regret it even more." "So, I don't regret choosing you." His voice was firm and warm, and it gave me the illusion of a vow of eternal love. My heart suddenly started beating violently. Perhaps it was because the words sounded too nice, I couldn't believe it for a moment. I looked straight into his eyes, wanting to confirm their truthfulness. His eyes were so determined, as if no matter what happened, no matter how much time passed, as long as it was me, he would definitely make this choice. On the one hand, I was secretly happy, but on the other hand, there was a sense of loss in my heart that I couldn't ignore. He chose me because I could help him get revenge. This... there is nothing wrong with it, but why do I feel a little dissatisfied? With expectation comes disappointment. I suddenly realized that I had expectations of Chu Yucheng beyond that of a friend, without knowing when. This kind of emotion suddenly made me feel a little panic, my body felt like it was electrified, and it seemed as if all the muscles in my body were trembling slightly. I like him? When did it start? I tried to recall when it all started, but found that countless images appeared in my mind... When my body was unable to adapt to the high-intensity work of cleaning out excrement at the beginning, he would help me massage my back and legs, and carefully apply medicine on my wounds. In the biting cold wind, he always stood by my side to help me, and from time to time he would take out a hot steamed bun or sweet potato from his arms like a magic trick. They would even help me teach those who "discriminate" me a lesson, even though it might just be to pee in the corner of someone's courtyard wall at night... Is it these times? Or was it that, even earlier, before the empathy even began, I had already been attracted? …… When I realized this, my heart was like a storm. I really didn't know when I started to have feelings for him. My mind was a mess and I didn't know what I said. I probably said something like thanking him for his trust. I quickly covered my face with the quilt and fell asleep. I slept very uneasily that night. Well, how could I sleep well with something on my mind? The next morning, when I went to work, Chu Yucheng was sleeping soundly. I didn't wake him up and went to Linxi Street as usual. He has an exam today. He has been preparing for it for a long time, so he needs to get enough rest. It's time for me to sort out my emotions.