Chapter 211: Heart Demon Tribulation (Part ) "It's okay to talk first." The director said with a regretful look, "As you just learned, there are no boys in the hospital who meet your requirements." No one would abandon a healthy boy in this day and age. Although little Ruan Xing had only been in the welfare home for more than a month, there were not many children in the home and she quickly got to know them all. Several boys in the home were either mentally handicapped or had disabilities in their hands and feet. Those with less serious cases have been adopted. The middle-aged couple had a bit high requirements, and they looked down on the rest. The middle-aged man smiled kindly, asked her name and age, and said critically, "You are a little old, you can remember everything." "Is it bad to remember things? I will always remember the kindness of my uncle and aunt to me." Little Ruan Xing said innocently, "I can still work." The middle-aged woman asked, "What can you do?" Little Ruan Xing smiled flatteringly, "I can wipe the table, wash the dishes, and sweep the floor. When Auntie gives birth to a younger brother in the future, I can help Auntie wash his diapers and play with him." The woman couldn't help but laugh, "Let's choose her."
"Don't you want to take another look?" the man asked her. "She said I could give birth to a son." The woman looked happy. "She's sweet. I like that. We came to see the child just to see if we like each other." The man thought about it and felt that it didn't matter. Anyway, the doctor said that it would be difficult for him to have his own children in this lifetime. He always felt uncomfortable raising someone else's son. The two of them agreed to come over tomorrow to go through the adoption procedures. The director looked at little Ruan Xing with a smile and said, "Smart children will have a good life wherever they go." "I wasn't smart before," said Ruan Xing. "After I met my mother-in-law, I suddenly became smart. I guess it was because of my mother-in-law's good teaching." The mother-in-law smiled and shook her head. She just said that on purpose. Mom and dad quarrel every day about their son. She said that she would have a son, and she would be very happy. The next day, the two arrived as promised. Xiao Ruan Xing lived the happy life she had always dreamed of. She had a big house to live in, a soft and warm bed to sleep on, new clothes to wear, she would not be beaten or go hungry, and she was enrolled in a nearby primary school. They said, "From now on, you should call me mom and dad." "Dad, Mom." She called out obediently. The new mother did not let her do the chores she had said, but truly spoiled her as her own daughter. Little Ruan Xing almost forgot that he was originally just a sewer rat. After being loved and raised to be plump and white, he thought he was a hamster. She lived like this for three whole years. Human beings, once they have something, will feel extremely empty and unwilling when they lose it.
She thought she had love. This illusion came to an abrupt end when I was nine years old. Mom and Dad were whispering in the room, and little Ruan Xing put her ear to the door to eavesdrop on their little secrets. Dad said, "Now that the second child policy has been implemented, why don't we adopt a son? Xiao Xing will grow up in a few years, and when she gets married, our home will be empty again." Although his daughter is caring and sensible, he still wants a son. But the mother hesitated and said, "Actually... I'm pregnant, it's only been two months, I didn't have the courage to tell you." They are both nearly 40 years old. If they had had a baby when they got married, the child would be in high school. They are pregnant now and would be laughed at if they told others about it. "Really?!" Dad was ecstatic at first, but then he asked doubtfully, "The hospital checked and found that I can't have children. Are you having an affair with another man behind my back?" "What nonsense!" The mother punched him in shame and anger, "Am I that kind of person? The doctor said it's very difficult, not zero. But even if the chance is very small, with more time and more attempts, it will eventually work, right?" "That's great!" Dad hugged Mom excitedly and kissed her twice. "But what about Xiao Xing?" Dad said casually, "Didn't you say she's very sensible? She should be able to take care of herself. If not, send her back home when you're about to give birth and let my dad take care of her." "That won't do. Your father is unreliable. We have raised Xiao Xing for such a long time that we have developed feelings for him even if he is just a puppy. Don't tell Xiao Xing yet." "Okay, whatever you say is whatever you want. It's all up to you." Xiao Ruan Xing silently retreated to the sofa in the living room, took out the homework from her schoolbag and lay on the table to write. She is copying the text. "When the thunderclouds roar in the sky and the June showers fall..." She wrote very slowly, so slowly that the rain fell on her homework book. The following spring, my younger brother was born. They named him Mofan. Dad said proudly, "Mo Fan means don't worry, don't be ordinary. Our son will definitely have a bright future when he grows up! It also sounds like Model, which is a good omen. I spent three nights thinking about this good name. What do you think?" The mother was still in confinement after giving birth. She endured the pain in her abdomen and lower body, holding the soft baby and feeding him. She exuded the radiance of motherhood, "Not bad, Xiaofan, Xiaofan, he's holding me, his little hands are so strong!" "Mo Xing, what do you think? Does it sound good?" Dad asked her. Little Ruan Xing quickly praised: "It's simple and elegant, and better than the names of my classmates. Dad is really good at naming." Dad smiled with satisfaction. In order to take care of the mother and child, the family hired a confinement nanny. The confinement nanny ignored her and said she wanted to teach her how to make soup for her mother, but she burned a big blister on her arm and scolded her: "You can't even do a little work properly, you don't act like a girl! After I finish taking care of you during the confinement period, I'll see how you take care of your mother!"
The mother heard it but didn't say anything, and the nanny became more and more bold. Little Ruan Xing just smiled flatteringly, while trying to complete her schoolwork, and after class she began to learn more ways to take care of babies and pregnant mothers. But her efforts were not noticed by others. Maybe it was because the nanny had said it so many times over time, and my mother felt that what she said made sense. Staying up late to take care of the children made her irritable and she blamed Xiao Ruan Xing in a very bad tone, "When you first came here, didn't you say that you could work and take care of your brother? How come you can only talk but not do?" She is a glamorous city girl, and the times are constantly progressing. When Xiao Ruan Xing was working in the factory, she had never heard of things like confinement nannies, diapers, talcum powder, baby facial oil, etc. She clutched the corner of her clothes helplessly, lowered her head and said, "I'm sorry, Mom, I will learn." But her mother didn't give her this opportunity. A mother who had never raised a baby ended up living a stressful life at the age of forty. After the midterm exam, Ruan Xing's grades dropped a lot, and the teacher sternly asked her to notify her parents to come to the school. She told her mother with trepidation. Her mother rejected her without hesitation, "I don't have time to go. If you cause me trouble again, I will stop living here and send you back to your hometown." Xiao Ruan Xing left the room in silence. For the first time, she felt that the house was not that big. There is simply no room for her. The confinement nanny finally left the house, and little Ruan Xing didn't even have time to catch her breath. That night, Mom and Dad discussed in the room. "Hubby, I really can't take care of the child by myself. He's too noisy and cries every night. I want my mother to come." "Where will your mother live when she comes? Our house has two bedrooms and a living room. Because the confinement nanny lived in the same room with you, I have been sleeping on the sofa for a month. My back and waist are sore. Please don't make it difficult for me." "You can live in Xiaoxing's room. Besides, the kids are noisy at night and it affects your rest. How can you work if you don't have energy during the day?" "Xiao Xing is almost ten years old, how can I live with her?" "Just... send him back to his hometown for a while, and then bring him back when he grows up." "Well, that's fine, you said it." Two hours and forty-three minutes on the green train, plus four hours on the minibus. Little Ruan Xing carried her schoolbag and two sets of clothes and arrived at this village where the roads had not even been repaired. She transferred to the town's primary school and had to get up early and walk for forty-five minutes every day. Grandpa was an unkempt old man who lived alone. His house was a mess. After picking up little Ruan Xing, he said nonchalantly, "Find a place to sit by yourself." He never lit a fire to cook. The kitchen was full of cobwebs and the ground in the yard was overgrown with weeds. He went out leisurely every day to smoke, brag, and play cards. He came back after eating and drinking and threw two cold steamed buns to Xiao Ruanxing.
Everyone else envied him for having a good son. He made a lot of money in the city. Although he rarely came back, he gave him money every year so that the old man could have food and clothing. Little Ruan Xing pursed her lips and said with difficulty: "Grandpa, I want to live in the school." "Stay, tell me what you want to do." "Every semester I have to pay 450 yuan for accommodation and 900 yuan for food." "Didn't your father give you money?" the old man was stunned. Xiao Ruan Xing remained silent. Her parents never gave her money. She didn't even have any pocket money when she was in school. She never ate snacks or drank carbonated drinks, never went to the playground, and never bought any toys. Sometimes she would envy other people’s children for having everything, but in the end she would always tell herself that she is already very happy and she should learn to be content. She knew that her parents had been very good to her and she couldn't ask for too much. But now, without money, she felt embarrassed when she spoke to this strange old man. I feel like a beggar begging for alms. If she had not gone to the welfare home, had not been adopted by her parents, and had been wandering the streets begging, perhaps she would not be so embarrassed now. The old man scratched his head irritably. She finally lived in the school as she wished. She studied silently in school and got perfect scores in exams one after another, but no one cared about her grades anymore. She seldom goes back to her grandfather's house. On weekends or holidays, she helps others with their homework in exchange for the opportunity to go to their homes and have a meal. Many children are happy to do so. When their parents learn that their children are good friends with the number one student in the school, they also warmly welcome Xiao Ruan Xing to their homes. It seemed as if her parents had forgotten about her and they never even called her. When she was in sixth grade, she got her period. The blood stained her school uniform pants red, and her face, like her mind, was blank. The new life teacher was a young male teacher. He gave her three days off with some embarrassment and asked her to go home and ask her mother. As if possessed by some mysterious force, she returned to her grandfather. There was no one in the room, probably because they had gone out to play cards. Xiao Ruan Xing turned on the faucet and washed her school uniform pants. The old man hummed a tune as he entered the room. When he saw little Ruan Xing, his eyes widened in surprise. Then he saw the faint red color in the basin and asked, "Did you sleep with someone?" Xiao Ruan Xing's breathing paused. Twelve-year-old Ruan Xing already understood what this meant. She knew that this grandfather spoke very vulgarly, but he paid for her accommodation and food every year, so she thought he must be a good person. But when she heard this, she felt that she might have made a wrong judgment.