Chapter 63: Chapter 63 Xingxing, She Doesn’t Need Them Anymore Chapter 63: Chapter 63 Xingxing, She Doesn’t Need Them Anymore She had spoiled them too much before, never laying a hand on them.
She didn’t know to care more about their sibling relationships either.
She always thought that the three of them seemed to have such a good relationship and would surely treat Xingxing the same.
In the past, she had been blind and ignorant; she wouldn’t be anymore.
“That’s your sister; you just pushed her without hesitation. You always say she bullies Xixi, how does she bully her? Tell me, tell me word for word.
Bai Ye, let me tell you, Xingxing is also your sister, one you have watched grow up since she was a little chubby and adorable child. But because of you, because of me, because of us, she became what she is today. So thin, so thin…”
Ye Xiu’s tears fell again, her eyes swollen from long crying, filled with red veins.
“Mom, we… we didn’t bully her; she even hit me.”
Bai Ye found himself at a loss as he saw Ye Xiu crying, feeling pained but also defiant.
“Look at my hand; she even pushed me that night.”
Bai Ye extended his hand, showing a slight scrape that was now scabbing.
What was that compared to Xingxing’s rough, unsightly hands?
“Is that all?”
Ye Xiu looked at Bai Ye with a faint expression, disappointment flashing across her eyes.
It was indeed disappointment—even though she, too, was an irresponsible mother, she still taught them to care for their sister.
Was this their way of taking care of her?
Ye Xiu looked at how Bai Ye was acting; they never really protected Xingxing from start to finish.
Not only did they not protect her, but they bullied her?
“Bai Ye, I asked you to take care of your sister, but of course, if you’re unwilling, I won’t force you because everyone has their own thoughts, right?”
Ye Xiu closed her eyes, not wanting to see them; it was her instinctual reaction, feeling like it was for the best.
When she opened them again, her eyes were clear and bright.
“But, I didn’t ask you to bully her. You’re all children of this family; why can’t you work together?
You are older than her. Can’t you work together? Don’t tell me you need to earn money. If you swapped roles with her, couldn’t she do it as well?
Oh, no need to swap now. Xingxing has already left, disappointed in me as a mother, and despairing of you; she doesn’t need us anymore.”
Thinking of this, Ye Xiu’s heart ached.
A pain that spread across her entire body from her chest.
Xingxing no longer needed them.
This realization made her ache unbearably, unable to breathe.
But that was the fact.
A fact she had caused herself.
“Mom?”
Bai Xixi had never seen Ye Xiu like this; in her memory, whenever Ye Xiu came back, she was always gentle.
She spoke gently, acted gently, she was so warm, hugging them, telling stories.
Her brothers would joke around, every weekend was their happy, fortunate time.
Especially during holidays, she would take them on spring outings. It was only because she had to tutor her eldest brothers during every summer vacation to earn money that Ye Xiu didn’t come home much.
But still, those were the times they looked forward to.
Now, seeing Ye Xiu with swollen, bloodshot eyes, somewhat hysterical, looking coldly at them, she seemed so unfamiliar.
She was somewhat afraid, afraid of such a mother, and very heartbroken at the same time.
So, in her mother’s heart, was it them who had bullied her sister?
“Mom, please don’t be mad, let’s go apologize, let our sister forgive us and ask her to come back, okay?”
Ye Xiu looked at the little group pet, whose countenance was filled with fear and caution at this moment, and a sudden surge of pity welled up within her. She shook her head forcefully, casting away the thoughts in her mind, not wanting to look at the group pet anymore.
She turned her head to the side and gave a self-deprecating laugh.
“There’s no need, you don’t have to apologize,” because it was no longer necessary.
“She doesn’t need to come back either. This home, for her, hasn’t had a single happy moment, only pain. It’s better if she doesn’t come back, really.”
In this home, Xingxing had no real presence, overlooked, like a spinning top that never stopped working.
She was tired, so let her rest.
What was there to do in this house?
Continue to come back to take over all the household chores?
At the same time, Ye Xiu was reflecting whether she should not have let them feed the pigs. Or maybe stop them from gardening, and as for washing clothes, they should take care of their own matters, they are all older than Xingxing and naturally should learn that.
Bai Da entered at this time, still worried. He came in to see a nearly collapsing Ye Xiu, a clueless group pet, and a stubborn Bai Ye.
He quickly went over to embrace Ye Xiu and gave Bai Ye a stern look,
“Mom is not feeling well, why are you still coming to bother her? Xixi, Mom is feeling upset, can you go outside for now?”
When he spoke to the group pet, his voice naturally softened a great deal.
The group pet obediently allowed Bai Ye to lead her out, looking back worriedly at Ye Xiu.
She did not understand why, today was supposed to be a happy day, but at this moment, it was so painful.
“Xiuxiu, did Bai Ye annoy you? Don’t mind him, should I go deal with him right now?”
For Ye Xiu, no matter when or where, no matter who it was, she always had to come second.
He softly cooed, careful not to scare Ye Xiu, as if she was a delicate doll needing gentle care.
But,
Ye Xiu did not need it,
Ye Xiu pushed away Bai Da’s hand forcefully, her gaze turning to Bai Da, this man whose eyes were full of tenderness.
It was him, his daily neglect that had dimmed the light in Xingxing’s eyes.
It was also his willful ignorance that made Xingxing’s life so miserable.
“Bai Da, I am not a good mother, and you are not a good father, no, that’s not right.”
Ye Xiu suddenly laughed, Bai Da couldn’t be said to be a bad father, he just wasn’t a good father for Xingxing.
“Bai Da, you don’t love Xingxing, do you?”
Ye Xiu looked at Bai Da with sarcasm; this was not a question, but a statement.
If she used to tell herself that Bai Da was just too busy like her, working every day, coming home exhausted, so he didn’t realize how much Xingxing had to do.
But, the recent events made her see clearly that he really didn’t care about Xingxing.
“No, not at all,”
Bai Da’s eyes flitted with guilt, though he sometimes neglected Bai Zhi, he had never said he didn’t love her.
“Xiuxiu, I know, sometimes I do ignore her, you know, I get so tired coming home every day that I fall asleep right after dinner. It might mean I don’t pay much attention to each child, but it doesn’t mean I don’t love them.”
How could Bai Da let Ye Xiu be disappointed in him, absolutely not. Besides, what he said was true, he really was tired.
Not knowing what had happened at home was normal, wasn’t it?