"Jealous? Why would... even if I am jealous, you are not going to do anything about it, are you? I mean, you... You have hardly paid me any attention. You are always so unapproachable that I can't seem to catch you," said Shen Li sounding a bit upset at the loss of control over his emotions. He should be the perfect example of a good husband. He should be rational and understanding, keeping a firm hold on himself and those who come after him. But he was indeed upset. He didn't want anyone to be closer and more important to his wife than him and their family. Shen Li bit his lips and looked away. He wanted to get angry say what was in his mind. He is her first husband. Who will keep watch over his brothers if he gets upset over things like this? It's not like his wife won't ever marry other mers? If he keeps getting angry over such a thing, what would happen to their family's peace? He was the first husband, the one who keeps track of everything and everyone, he couldn't be wilful!
He felt all of the myriads of emotions he was feeling were drowned by a wave of ice-cold water. He looked away; what was he doing? Acting like a child just because his wife has someone else in the world where she came from, it's not like he is clean either, right? Though the person he shared his body with was the Yu Dong from before, they were two different people, right? Then what right did he have to question her?
"It's nothing, let's go," Shen Li didn't want to continue with this subject anymore, his joyful mood was no longer there, and he wanted to go back home and sleep. Or else he might end up saying something that he shouldn't.
However, just as he stood up. Yu Dong grabbed his wrist and pulled him back because Shen Li wasn't prepared for such a thing. His feet stumbled, and he fell right on top of Yu Dong, surprised and a bit scared when he saw her expression. His wife, she looked a bit angry with him. Why was she mad? Shouldn't he be the one who should get mad at her?
"Shen Li, why are you treating me like this ?" said Yu Dong. Her expression went dark, even darker than the bottom of a pan, as her grip on his wrist tightened. Something flashed across her eyes that made his stomach twist with anxiety. "You can not just question me about whether I have someone else in my life, then get angry at me, without listening to my explanation! Then decide to end the conversation. Do I look that distrustful to you, is that it?"
"No, I - that's not what I meant!" Shen Li was stunned at the sudden change of her aura. It never occurred to him that Yu Dong would get angry. Still, then again, he was questioning her loyalty. Maybe it was a bit upsetting for her. "I- I think I don't have the right to question you when I'm not even your husband, the man you love. I am not even pure for you!"
"Pure? Not my husband?" Yu Dong couldn't believe her ears when she heard Shen Li say those words. How was he not her man? Just because she didn't marry him? Didn't take his virginity? Just because of these petty things, he was trying to keep himself away from her? Is that it? Her heart couldn't help but feel stifled as she flipped their position so that Shen Li was under her while she was straddling him with her legs.
"Ah, wife, what are you -"
"So, just because of these things, you think I'm incompetent? That you cannot even get jealous of others?" said Yu Dong grabbing his hands and pinning them over his head, making his body arch against hers. "Shen Li, don't forget that it doesn't matter whether I wasn't the one who married you, or I wasn't the one who shared your body with you. Let me tell you, the day I took your responsibility as your wife - you were my husband from that day onwards. You are my first husband, and you will remain so till death do us part. Even if you die, then even your ghost will be mine, you get it?"
Shen Li really wished that his mernine parts would stop tingling every time she said those things, or else he wouldn't be able to understand what she was saying to him. He blamed her possessive, gravelly voice that enchanted his mind sending him a hazy daze. "I -how can I not be jealous? Of course, I'm, but I'm your first husband. As your main husband, I can't get upset, sad, or angry about it. Because that's my responsibility, I'm not allowed to make a fuss, or else you will find me an annoyance. I can't allow that. Because of this, I can't be spoiled like Ye Liu, and I can't be like Chen Mi, who can be by your side as the father of your child."
As Shen Li spoke, a warm trickle of tears escaped past his fluttering closed lashes.
Seeing him cry like this, Yu Dong felt annoyance bubble in her heart. She has worked so hard to make them happy and unrestrained, but it looks like her efforts weren't that successful. She leaned closed to Shen Li and turned his face to face her. "Shen Li, I don't want to hear what you can or cannot do, alright? That is what you have been taught by others. Your parents were the ones who told you to act like this. But I don't care about these things, haven't I always asked you three to do what you like? Then why can't you trust me a bit? Do you think I'm so egotistic and cruel that I will get upset over your small questions? At least trust me a bit! I know that you have suffered a lot but that suffering ended the day I came here! I can protect you and our family and treat you all like you deserve to be treated. So tell me, Shen Li, not as my main husband, not as my first husband but as a man, what do you want to do? Do you want to live a life hidden behind your stupid rules and preconceptions? Or do you want to live a life where you walk side-by-side with me? Because if you stay as you are, you will never move forward with me. Tell me because all I care about is what you think."
Shen Li's eyes widened in surprise as something warm and fuzzy shot through his heart, breaking the barrier he built around himself. He gritted his teeth and gasped, feeling the shackles of his trauma breaking bit by bit before he opened his mouth and said, "Mark me as yours, my wife.. I want to be your most important person."
