Chapter 78 Remarks on the launch I have been in this industry for almost ten years. To be honest, at the beginning I felt that I couldn’t find any books to read, so I thought about giving it a try. As I was writing, it suddenly became popular. Those years were physically and mentally exhausting, with recurring anxiety attacks and physical breakdown. But I have a habit of persisting to the end, until I find that this road is blocked... I discovered my health problems when I first started writing Tao Ni. If it were someone else, I would probably take a break for a while, treat my illness, and rest. But I feel that since I have started a new book, I must finish it. Then just write it! I was writing while receiving treatment...As the treatment progressed, I found that it was not that simple. I really want to slap myself: I told you not to show off, what are you going to do now? Passion can sometimes lead people to do stupid things... It only took me a minute to decide to continue writing and to finish everything I had planned. My body was suffering, but I still had to think and write every day... I gradually realized that I was a little too optimistic.
It turns out that under high pressure, it is really impossible to type well! That state is like shit! But there is no way. Since I have chosen to finish it, I have to continue writing it even if I have to kneel down. Not long after, a bigger problem was discovered during the inspection. Damn it! I really feel like crying but I have no tears at this moment. But you must finish installing it! I gritted my teeth and persevered. I took so many medicines every day that I had to write them down in a pen: which medicines should be taken before meals, how long before meals, how to arrange the order of taking them... which medicines should be taken after meals, how long after meals, how to take them more scientifically. And before going to bed... Just endure it. After a lot of cooking, A Xiang Po failed to cook the "Suppression of Rebellion", but instead turned "Suppression of Rebellion" into a pot of multi-grain porridge that no one liked. After finishing "Tao Ni", my illness gradually stabilized. I am optimistic that I can start the next book in a relatively good physical and mental condition. This one is better than the pretense. Not long after, during an examination, it was discovered that one of the indicators was incorrect. Then do a deeper inspection. What the hell! Found a new problem! This time the problem is bigger. I consider myself a strong person, but I can't withstand such continuous blows! This new problem brought a lot of trouble. I was anxious for a long time, tormented for a long time, and endured it for a long time... Any problem is most painful in the beginning. The whole person needs to gradually learn to accept and endure everything from an unacceptable state. So, as you can see, I disappeared for a while. Someone asked me: Why don’t you say it? At least let your readers know what you are doing. I said: I just don’t want to play the victim.
Look, he's showing off again! Actually, I'm not pretending, it's just my personality. …… Okay, let’s talk about something cheerful! In fact, I have been lazy and have not planned to start a new book at all. Until one day the editor contacted me: Sir, do you have a new book? It suddenly dawned on me, what the hell! I actually lay there for so long? I said it's still in preparation. So start preparing! Recuperation and treatment take time and frequently interrupt the normal conception process, so preparation is not smooth. Not being able to find the feeling is the most troublesome problem. I keep recuperating and preparing at the same time...just live a leisurely life like that. I can't remember how many years it has been since I last felt so relaxed. Really! If you want to prepare, then prepare. If you don’t want to, then just do what you need to do. Going out for a walk, letting those people see what a skinny handsome guy looks like. Reading a book or just daydreaming makes me feel happy. Until one day an idea popped into my mind. Then, the real preparation began. Someone asked: Why is the protagonist a sickly person at the beginning? In fact, this is an unconscious feedback from my inner world: I have been suffering from various physical problems in recent years, and when I was conceiving the protagonist, I chose this almost subconsciously. And smoking medicated cigarettes... this problem, cough cough cough! I have been smoking for a long time. I have quit smoking for several years. When I am under the greatest pressure and suffering from physical problems, I can't help but want to smoke. Having a cigarette can at least help me get rid of the huge psychological pressure for a while! But in the end, he did not relapse, but subconsciously attributed this thought to Jiang Qingzhi. With a little medicinal smoke, the world is mine! Having said so much, I feel great. I have been less anxious recently, but the emotional problems caused by the huge pressure in recent years are still there. During this period of lying down, it has been almost following me like a shadow. During the period of preparing the new book, this guy had quite a few outbursts. But the saying that fortune and misfortune go hand in hand is never wrong. These past few years have been a torment, but at the same time, it has also made me constantly reflect on myself. Being beaten, reflecting, being beaten again, reflecting again... I can’t say that the whole person has been transformed, but the changes are huge. The new book is about to be released, and at least the emotional swings aren’t as great as with the previous ones. Because I haven't written for a long time and lost a lot of my state, it was a bit difficult to write "Good Morning Daming" at the beginning. But as the plot unfolds step by step, the feeling is also returning step by step.
I want to tell a story that can heal myself. Of course, if it can make my parents feel a little relieved and happy, then my goal will be achieved. …… I have read a lot of different books while lying down recently. Of course, most of them are medical books. I remember there was a passage, but I don’t know who said it, I forgot. The general meaning is: Life is a train, and you are the driver. Countless people will get on and off this train along the way. Sometimes there are many passengers, sometimes there are few. But even if there is no one on the train except you, the driver, you have to drive it to the terminal alone. Getting listed is a challenge. But what I hate the most is tests. What an annoyance! Dear brothers, sisters, and old men... It’s started! Please subscribe, vote for a few monthly tickets, and I will also accept your recommendation votes. It will be available on Monday, which is early morning on the 5th. Six updates! I'll post them together. I sincerely ask for your support. ——Sir Dybala at 19:30 on Saturday night. (End of this chapter)