Chapter 60
So, what happened next? When she adopted the little girl, Mrs. An initiated a compensatory mentality, treating her as a substitute for her biological daughter in a pathological mode.
So, after her real daughter came back, she felt that the things she gave to An Ran belonged to Anya, and it was natural to give everything that An Ran had to Anya.
So, when An Ran and Anya were together, once she discovered that Anya was different from An Ran, or that Anya was not as good as An Ran, she couldn't help but feel twisted and uncomfortable.
She seemed to realize immediately that An Ran was not her daughter, but Anya was, so everything An Ran had should belong to Anya. Gradually, she couldn't stand An Ran anymore.
Her heart was unbalanced.
She felt that An Ran did not deserve what she had received before, and turned more attention to her biological daughter Anya.
But An Ran, who was in the game but had no knowledge of it, didn't know anything yet.
She only knew that since Anya appeared, her world had suddenly changed. Everything in the past was as fragile and unreal as an illusory bubble.
Not only did she lose her family, but she also lost their care and protection. She was also talented and far from being able to stand on her own feet. She had no strength to face this huge life change. In addition to being at a loss, she was also afraid of losing everything. Fear of change, fear of being separated from the original family, fear of saying goodbye to everything familiar, fear of facing the unknown world.
There were too many fears, like an abyss, dragging her into darkness.
She couldn't figure out why her life was like that. In his short life, he almost lived without any autonomy at all.
As soon as they were pregnant, they were faced with the huge darkness of life. An Ran never thought of competing with Anya from the beginning. She also knew that Anya was pitiful.
When Anya returned home, she was obviously scared and overwhelmed, but she still tried hard to get along well with Anya, because she didn't know the process of her adoption at the time and thought she was an orphan before being adopted. If she hadn't been Adoption may make it difficult to even stay , when she knew that she was the adopted daughter of the An family, she felt that she should be grateful to her adoptive parents. In addition to repaying them for raising her, she must also repay them for their kindness in nurturing her. She even had responsibilities and obligations. Give back to them.
Therefore, even after Anya came back, Mrs. An soon no longer had any eyes for her as a daughter. She only had Anya in her heart. Whenever she and Anya had a conflict of interest, she would always ask her to make concessions, and she would unconditionally satisfy their demands. Require.
Even though she was very heartbroken and uncomfortable, she always worked hard to do her best in all aspects because she wanted to be able to repay them.
Whether it's the adoptive mother's or Anya's.
She felt she owed them this.
It was under such constant guilt, constant desire to please, and constant desire to prove that she gradually strangled her own life force, and she personally helped them kill herself.
Later, when her grandma told her the real process of being adopted, she realized that she was wrong.
She didn't owe Anjia anything, and she didn't have to repay them anything.
She didn't have to live this life.
At the same time, she also understood that it was not because her adoptive mother loved herself more that she raised herself so seriously, but because she loved herself less that she could ruthlessly mold herself into the image of the ideal child in her heart. Not thinking about my own feelings.
Because when facing Anya, she has an instinct to take care of her feelings, compromise and give in.
Not to myself. 1314 (End of this chapter)